mid-twenties crisis

am sure everyone has their own crisis at different times of their lives...currently, i think i am facing the mid-twenties crisis...mmm...maybe to many...mid-twenties should not have any crisis..but i have ah...*SIGHZ* but then again..i am not really in my mid-twenties....i am approaching my mid-twenties....but time really flies...and before one knows it..i may be in my nineties already...maybe dead already...*laughs*

anyway...i have only 1 year left before i am an official mid-twenty...and till date...i have accomplished NOTHING!! *bawls* nothing...i have nothing to my name...MONEY always not enough..dont even have enough to buy anything...CAREER not established, nothing to say nothing to show... LOVE is a piece of blank paper..no boyfriends, no dates, no suitors...*bawls* see...i didnt bluff when i said i am hitting the mid-twenties crisis...

some of my friends are rich and influential...so MONEY not an issue to them...CAREER has the backing of family...some of my friends are rich, influential and good-looking...so MONEY not an issue at all...CAREER not really a problem... DATES are always knocking at their doors...other friends have plans in mind...so MONEY is in control... CAREER is carefully planned.... a few has the calibre and luck... good CAREER which brings them good MONEY and may in turn bring them good DATES... see...all my friends....out of the 3 items...they have at least one....for me...i have NOTHING!!! i dont like my job...so no CAREER...no MONEY... not from a rich family... so no MONEY... then am fat and ugly...so no DATES...can someone tell me...is there anyone more worst off than me??

okay okay..i think i have gone too far...there are many people out there who doesnt even have enough food to eat, enough clothes to wear, no parents to dote on them, no relatives to share joy and laughter, and many many more misfortunes...i guess i am lucky to have a family..although at times...i dont realy like my parents and my siblings and my relatives...ha ha ha..but hey...i believe i am not alone...if you tell me you NEVER dislike your parents and siblings...jolly well go EAT SHIT AND DIE!! *laughs* and well at least i am healthy...and at least i do enjoy certain comforts...i must learn to be contented with whatever i have....

but seriously, i do feel lost...lost in transition..,from a schoolgirl to an office lady...somehow...i missed school...missed the carefree lifestyle...missed the holidays...missed the canteens..missed the priviledges as a student...but anyhow, i'm enjoying my working life...BUT after office hours!! *laughs* somehow, i feel that i'm leading a misleading life...i dont know what i want in life...somehow for the first time...i cannot see my future...*sighz*

i think it's time for me to change my CAREER, think of how to earn and save more MONEY and get to know more guys to DATE...actually i think the best solution is to get a rich husband and be a tai tai...then i will be a TAI TAI (career) with lotsa MONEY and a HUSBAND (love)!!!! *laughs*

swimming coach again...

as per my previous entry...as i was saying...there are 2 swimming coaches at the swimming pool that i always swim after my lesson on saturday...and i was saying...coach #2 seems a good catch...*laughs* and i was saying about what we talked about and blah blah..anyway....if really interested...read this: swimming coach

anyway....after that time..i did bump into the 2 coaches on and off....whenever i was there swimming..at 2pm..i would see them...and as usual...coach #1 still remains a mystery to me...and coach #2 would say hi to me...and we would chat a little...here and there...he would smile and say hi to me..and i would just revert with a hi and then i would swim away and he would continue to teach his kids....didnt really talk much though..although i was hoping to know him better...*laughs* because my friend told me..." know him good...then if we want to learn sea sports..can ask him for lobang...and can jio him go clubbing...got more clubbing khakis " *laughs*

well...so for 2 weeks..i didnt go swimming because had a wedding to attend on one saturday and was having my menses for the other....and so last saturday..i went swimming..but was not at my usual time..my usual time is 1pm...but i went at 245pm..and saw both coaches teaching their kids...anyway...this is my conversation with coach #2

coach #2: wah..so late ah...anyway didnt see you last week...didnt come ah?

me: ya loh...last week was inconvenient...previous week got wedding..not mine though...*laughs*

coach #2: .......

*laughs* think i was damn crappy...why did i tell him it wasnt convenient...i could have just said... "BUSY"...right? sighz...anyway...never mind...

well....the swimming lessons finished at 3pm....and just before he left...this is our conversation:

me: hey..ask you a quick question..where did you get that tattoo of yours?

coach #2: eh...this one ah..at peninsula...

me: ooh...peninsula ah..good or not?? clean or not???

coach #2: eh..you asking me good or not or painful or not? you see good or not loh...got this for like 10 years already...not painful lah..you want to get ah?

me: wah..you got it for 10 years? how old were you when you had that?

coach #2: 22... (wah....so young ah..must be ah beng..wonder if he drives a WRX....heh heh heh...but he doesnt look like he's 32...got the urge to ask if he's married!!)

me: huh? you 32 this year ah....mmmm...

coach #2: ya...dont look like right..look like 12...hehe

me: eh....i didnt say that...anyway...how much did you get that tattoo for??

coach #2: aiyah..nowadays...getting one quite cheap..and it's everywhere..and in Singapore...quite safe..no need to worry so much....if you want to get..i suggest you getting one at the back..nice..and get a tribal design..dont get weird weird one..wont go out of style... (dont recall asking him for fashion tips leh..but i dont want to get my back..i want to get one at the spinal there...)

me: mmm...i want it at the spinal there..near the butt....at the back very obvious..i only want to let certain people see...ha ha ha ha... (like real ah..i dont want it so obvious to prevent my mum from seeing...ha ha ha..wait she nag till i die...)

coach #2: ya right..you come swimming..everyone can see already....hahaha

me: well...eh.....mmmm...anyway..what's your name ah?

coach #2: eh...why leh..you want to know my name so that you can take revenge if it's painful ah....hahaha...anyway my name is jason...

me: ya loh...if it's painful..am going to kill you....

coach #2: ha ha ha...then let me tell you...it's damn painful..so painful that it hurts till you cry for help! (mmm.....dont really get his last sentence...so he's afraid of me taking revenge on him is it? or what?)

mmm....maybe he will ask for my name the next time he sees me...*laughs* or even ask for my number....*laughs* but quite sad leh...was half-expecting him to ask for my name and number...and i was all ready to give him...*laugh* boy...i sound so desperate....what the fuck!! *laughs*

bridget jones' diary

just finished the book "Bridget Jones' Diary: The Edge of Reason"...for those who doesnt know..this is the second book...the first...i think it's just "Bridget Jones' Diary"...not sure about it though....*laughs* anyway...i watched the move first before reading the books....after watching the movie "Bridget Jones' Diary"....i was thinking...maybe i should get the book to see if there's any differences...and hence...that was what i did...as for the 2nd book...it was the same...*grins*

Bridget Jones' Diary

from what i can remember...i thought hugh grant was very good in the show...he had protrayed the "i'm-the-bad-guy-with-good-guy-looks" damn well..but of course..Colin Firth had a major part to play too...he had protrayed the "'i'm-the-good-guy-with-good-guy-looks" bloody well...was very very impressed with their acting..as for rene...cannot remember much..but her British accent was good...*laughs* anyway....after the show..i decided to buy the book and i thought the book was much better....although i cannot remember much about both the movie and the book....*laughs*

Bridget Jones' Diary: The Edge of Reason

then the 2nd movie was up and going..and i went to catch it..it was rather interesting...i thought...and i thought rather romantic too....heh heh heh....and again..i bought the book to read..but was rather disappointed with the book....although the movie had scenes from the book...the movie was more exciting and interesting....in the book...bridget didnt go travelling that much..she just stayed in London and lamented about her life with Mark Darcy..but nevertheless...it's still interesting...

mmm..i would love to have a guy like Mark Darcy..although he's rather boring and whatever...and not as romantic..but he's sweet in his own ways...=) mmm....must watch Batman, Initial D and World of Wars...heard Batman was good...Initial D has cars - skyline, evolution, RX8 etc...and cute guys..but am afraid jay chow will spoil everything...*laughs*...World of Wars has my Tom..how can i miss it at all? *grins*

Etiquette

there are many etiquette classes available for us to take....and i havent been to any...*laughs* but was just wondering...if etiquette classes are a must for most singaporeans....mmmm....

let's see...the most common etiquette classes are for table etiquette...if i am not wrong...not sure if the term was correct...but it's like teaching one how to use the right utensils during meals, how to eat certain items, etc etc...actually..i think this is more appropriate for fine dining...as i dont think there are many utensils to be used when one dines at food court or hawker center or even restaurants....nothing much to comment here as i think i have no bloody idea of all the etiquette to be displayed on the table...*laughs*

but i seriously think....some ladies have no toilet etiquette...the toilet located on my office floor is a good example...every day...in the first cubicle..the squatting kind...some buggers will always forget to flush or didnt flush at all...and one can see the papers and the yellow liquid...fucking disgusting...if not...some buggers will pee all over the floor..i mean...if one wants to squat and pee..PLEASE..fucking please aim properly...at times..in the other cubicles...the same situation will occur too...not the aiming but the flushing...and there were a few times...there's this lady...the same one...i've seen her entered the cubicle..and when she came out...she DIDNT wash her hands!!! seriously, i think this is a HUGE problem...it's so fucking yucky....*shudders*

then we have the SMS etiquette...okay..maybe no such words...but somehow...i think some idiots out there has no such etiquette..i mean...if i text a message that requires a response...PLEASE BLOODY RESPOND!!!i hate it when a text was sent across to confirm something..and there i was..waiting for the answer..while the other idiot was just assuming that by not replying..i would know the answer...what the fuck??!!!and at times...i text "abc" and the person replied "123" no doubt most telco provide quite a large number of free smses...but this is not the way to use it...and also..some people simply like to text one-liners like "are you free?", "what you doing?", "where are you?" and i have to reply...with the standard template...." XXX and why?" and then it will go on and on with one-liners....it's so damn infuriating to me..maybe it's just me..but since a sms can have 360 characters...UTILIZE IT!!!

actually did anyone realized...the ang mohs..when they see you..they will go.."how are you?", "how's your day?", "hi there" and etc...and most singaporeans will reply..."fine, thank you" mmmm...somehow...it just seemed weird to me..it's like..they way the ang mohs put it across is informal but we singaporeans reply formally...anyway..some ang mohs told me..it's alright to reply "fine, thank you"...but normally they would go.."fine, thank you...you?" so the general rule of thumb is to ask the person back...*smilez*

actually i thought we are supposed to be a gracious society...but somehow...i think we are far from it...but i guess we are learning...i hope at least we are trying....*laughs*

princess mel

realized most of my entries have the F word...*laughs* i am not a bad girl..i am a good girl..i dont kill, i dont smoke, i drink occassionally, i swear occasionally, i dont steal, i dont do drugs, i love God, i love my family, i love my friends...anyway...i have decided to talk about Princess Mel...she's like my siamese twin at heart...we almost have the same thinkings, same tastes in certain areas, and we even developed telepathy at times...*laughs*

Princess Mel...no no..she's not someone whom i am going to bitch about..she's a VERY VERY nice girl....so nice till...sometimes..i think she's too nice to be true...anyway..let's see..i have know her for like..almost 10 years..actually this is our 9th year....yeah...next year, we are going to celebrate our 10th anniversary!!! i got to know her in secondary 3...when i was sitting in front of her and beside a gay....*yucks* well....i am not against homosexuality but somehow, the gay beside me was ugly and yucky..unlike those hunky and well-groomed gays...sighz...anyway...have side-tracked too much...as i was saying...i knew Princess Mel and somehow we hit it off...which is very unlikely as she's so demure and soft while i am big and loud....*laughs* anyway....we started to hang out a lot...and would always turn to talk to her..because i'm sitting beside an ugly gay...*laughs* actually Princess Mel prefers to believe that i turned to talk to her because i wanted to look at one of the most handsome guys of our school who was sitting one level higher...but that's not true..i seriously and truely wanted to talk to her....we even had the same bag..just that hers was blue and mine was red....

anyway...we managed to sit beside each other in secondary 4...and in front of a cupboard..we ended up there because i was late for school on the first day and by the time we got into class..those were the only 2 seats left...in front of the class cupboard...anyway...i think secondary 4 was quite an eventful year for us...i could remember...we would always exchanged notes during boring classes..and we would try to write to each other in song lyrics...like..i would always start with " i'm sitting here in a boring room..." and she would reply with some other songs...*laughs* that was really fun...and this was also the year we had our cold war....and i was the initiator...cannot remember how it started..but i was the one who sort of got pissed off with her..nope..she didnt do anything to piss me off...it's just ME ....somehow i felt that..we were hanging out too often...so often that it pissed me off....this is ME...every good friend that i have now..have gone through this cold war with me and i am always the initiator..i will always detach myself from them for a while..and then if we still manage to be friends...the friendship is forever...i'm weird ah...anyway... i hate it when people sees me and ask... "hey, where's princess mel??" and my reply would be..." i dont know..." i mean do i have to be with her every second of my life? no doubt we were good friends..or rather we are still good friends..we dont have to be together forever right? anyway..funnily, the whole class realized that and they got really concerned about us not talking to each other...and if we were to flip back out autograph books...we would see statements like this..." why you 2 not talking ah? " *laughs* guess everyone is concerned about our relationship...*laughs* anyhow, i think the cold war stopped because we started to write letters to each other...not sure who started it...*laughs*

then it was the JC times...we were in the same JC for like the first 3 months..AJC...and we were not in the same class..but still it was alright...and when our O levels results were out...i was able to stay on but dear Princess Mel has to go to NYJC...mmm...was sad that we could not be in the same school..but i was not willing to go NYJC with her..she did try appealing...if i didnt remember wrongly...but it failed or she didnt try at all? mmm....memory failing..but anyhow, i was in AJC and she's in NYJC....so for 2 years..we didnt really contact each other at all...or rather..we only contact each other like once a year? pathetic right? but somehow, during that 2 years...although she's not with me physically, i still remember her and she's always in my heart...*grins*

then somehow, we started talking again..when we were in college...we were not in the same faculty..but somehow, we managed to talk more and update each other more...which is good....and then somehow, the 3 years of college years passed without much events...mmm..cant recall much from here...but we were in constant contact...anyway...after college...she went on a 4 months trip to the states..and i was damn bloody jealous..but i was not allowed to go because of my "scarry-cat" mum..she said...911 just happend and all the bullshit..and anyway..i was too lazy to argue with her...miraculously, now we are working in the same company, same department and even sitting next to each other...*laughs* it's pretty amazing...so now we are like back to our secondary school times..but of course we are much more matured, prettier, and we have both changed...for the better... *laughs*

actually, Princess Mel is a very very nice person..but at times..i thought she was too nice...and also at times..i felt that she's very troublesome...very picky....like the food she eats, the things she buys, the whatever shit she hates...and then at times..she's like so damn slow...always got to wait for her to finish her food, wait for her to pack up, wait for her to go to office...and at times..she would give me the "damn sianz" look which really piss me off...and now and then i would still detach myself from her..as i think we are getting too close..*laughs* a classic example: one morning...i woke up feeling pissed with her...for no reason... (yeah..that's me...i'am always like that...dont ask me why..) and when i met up with her to go to office together..i refused to talk to her or even walked near her or looked at her...just dont feel like it...and then i think she got pissed ..and suddenly she asked me..." eh..you angry with me ah" and i replied hostilely.."no lah..for what?" and the conversation stopped just there....mmm..and then i couldnt remember what make us talked again..but we need not resort to letter writing and this was resolved on the same day...*laughs* i think i am one tough friend to satisfy....*laughs* anyway, we have differing opinions now and then but i guess we have learnt to accept each other faults and all...

over the years, Princess Mel has evolved...i cannot pinpoint how she had changed..but she definitely has changed...not for the better..not for the worse..just changed...somehow, i think she's more open, outgoing, less shy, not so demure nowadays...she's going into the dark side...*laughs* maybe i have influenced her with my evil thinkings...*laughs*

anyway, i really love her lots lots and i believe she loves me lots lots too..although at times..i felt that she doesnt love me anymore....*sob sob*

i hate indian men!!

i am not being a racist here...but it's just that...in one day...FOUR indian men stepped on my toes and pissed me off!!! can anyone believe that..what is wrong with them? which part of their brains, if any , is not working well? did they all gang up to irritate the hell out of me?

Indian #1

early in the morning...my useless HR advisor asked me to clear some shit...which i have no choice but to do it as this shit is related to one of my job scope...*fuck* so i was trying to find out from this indian man about the machine that he was currently using.....who is his Singapore reporting manager and how long will he be here...well..he's an indian from india...anyway..he was unable to give me the info and gave me a whole lot of unnecessary info...*what the fuck*..and so i told him.."never mind..i will sort it out"... and then my phone rang and because i had the caller ID phone..i knew it was him and reluctantly i picked it up...thinking that he would like to find out what the hell i am doing..trying to find out who's his manager was...and this was what he said to me.."can i appoint you to be my manager? " what the FUCK!!!!!!!!!! almost vomitted blood at this sentence..that all i replied was that i was busy and i slammed the phone...seriously, what is this fucking stupid man trying to do here?? trying to be witty and funny?? sorry..it's not working AT ALL!!! this was not the end...in the afternoon...he came and looked for me to find out what's the real issue here..and i explained to him the situation 3 times before he could get it....and keep feeding me with unnecessary info again!! *ARGH*

Indian #2

in the late afternoon..i recieved a note from this other guy from the other department asking for some details on a certain procurement that was done by this indian...and yes...another india indian...and as i read the email trail..i realize why i was in the copy....this guy needed some details from this india indian...and this fucking indian told the guy this..." you can look for hannah...she's the one who did the purchase (paperwork)..." what the FUCK!! yes...i was the one who did the purchase...but what i did was the paperwork and all...the administrative portion...on the items to be procure...this stupid indian was the one who gave me the list...and now he can tell the guy that he's not aware of what were the procured items?? can somebody shout with me?? WHAT THE FUCK??? i was so bloody pissed...but being a nice person...*grins* i search my mails archive and found the note which stated clearly what were to be purchased...and i replied everyone on that email...with the items and the following line... " copy xxx, you should have a list of the items that were purchased as i am only an adminstrator who takes instruction from you on the list to be purchased..anyway have managed to find the list in my archives... " *laughs* felt much better....

Indian #3

an hour or so later...i recieved another note from another indian from india...sighz..today is the "india indians irritate" day is it...anyway...the main story behind this is that this indian has to provide 2 piece of info..and a group of us have bug him like umpteem times and even escalated to bosses...but it's taking too long...and finally he replied..and i thought..finally...but i was so fucking wrong...i open up the file..and realized that he only completed half of what we had asked him to...this was the 5th mails that have been flying around..telling him so many fucking times the info we required from him...and he was still not answering my questions!!! what is happening??? has his brains all decided to desert him?? in the first place..does he have any brains to start with? *ARGH*

Indian #4

when i was on my way home....was just coming out of the MRT....seriously, i think singaporeans are horrible commuters...when the doors of the trains opened, everyone will just rushed to get in and get out....i thought SMRT has been communicating to let the passengers to get out...before getting in...why so kiasu...*tsk tsk*..anyway...as i was coming out of the train...this indian man suddenly rushed for the train as he could hear the "beep beep beep" which indicated the doors were closing...and given the ample space around the station..he had to run straight into my path and almost bumped into me!!! what's wrong with him?? no eyes to see ah?? no brains to think?? mmm..come to think of it....maybe i was right...eyes are fucked up and brains are non-existant...*laughs*

no offence to all other indians out there..but it just happen that today is the "Hannah-Meets-Irritating-Indians" day....fuck sia...

an eventful week

this has been an eventful week for me....could say it was quite an exciting week for me..or rather..eventful is a better word...some activities which i have carried out or will be carrying out may not be exciting at all....*laughs*

Monday: Piano Lesson


because my piano kid has to go for church camp....and so we brought forward the piano lesson from Friday to Monday...so normally, my Monday nights are free..but this week....i gave piano lesson....

Tuesday: Brazilian Waxing


because a friend was very interested to get a brazilian wax...and since my "time is almost up"...we arranged for an appointment to go for it...it was my friend's 1st time..and she's like super nervous and all..while it's my 3rd time..but i am equally nervous..but this time..i was rather satisfied with the service as it was rather clean..but it hurts when the tweezer is used....*laughs*

Wednesday: Pedicure


because am going to attend a wedding on saturday...decide to go for pedicure...and also...it just happened that there was a 50% discount...and so all the more i want to go....why not go for manicure as well? well...because i play the piano..and am still playing..it's not worth to get a manicure done...anyway..did a french pedicure for 20 bucks...and am satisfied with the service and results...*smilez*

Thursday: Move - Mr & Mrs Smith


got free tickets to watch this show...*grins* courtesy of my uncle...it was at golden village great world city..and it was simply amazing..free food....and it's the special theatre...with only 30 seats and it's cushion and with blanket and there are people serving food...i feel like a princess...i think it's some citibank gold thingy...but it was simply great...the movie..alright if you asked me..not fantastic and not worth the money to watch...got a slight twist in the story which made me go.."OIC" and not "WAH AMAZING"...brad and angelina were beautiful people.. that's about it...and one more thing...the word "fuck" was not used at all...hahahaha...

Friday: PCK Musical

again..got free tickets to catch this local musical....at the singapore indoor stadium...which i think was rather dumb...we spent $$$ to build the esplanade but like not useful....anyway..maybe it was too expensive to hold it there...anyway..was expecting something quite good as it was publisized that it's a huge production and all...but honestly speaking..it's not that great...the cast cannot sing that well except for Gurmit Singh and Tan Kheng Hua who also barely can make it...the storyline kinda boring..the music not that nice...but my bro enjoyed it though...maybe it's very easy to watch....but one thing i like about this musical...there's a rapping portion...*laughs*

Saturday: Wedding

not lah..not MINE..just that a colleague is getting married..and i am part of the sister gang..but somehow..i am not excited about it...am feeling rather sian actually...dont feel the happiness, joy and excitement for this colleague of mine...actually we are not close at all...dont know why am i part of her sister gang...guess she's desperate?? by right..i am supposed to reach her house at 7am...and now it's 2am and i am still here...blogging away....and did not even bother to buy new clothes...doing my hair...doing my face..am just going as if i am going to a picnic?? a friend told me to create trouble for the groom and to which i reply..."see how lah..sianz..not interested..." sighz...given this attitude..would i ruin my colleague's wedding? hopefully not..anyway..let's pray that there are handsome guys to drool at tomorrow..but the probability of this happening is 0%...*laughs*

Sunday: Lessons Day

because i have to attend the wedding on saturday..i have to reschedule all my piano lessons to sunday...*mutter mutter*..hate to reschedule as i simply finds it confusing..actually more of troublesome...stupid..but anyhow...have done it..and from 12pm to 7pm..i will be having lessons after lessons...going to be a hectic day...and it will be the Sighz-Sunday-Is-Over-Monday-Got-To-Work night again....*SIGHZ*

the revenge of the cellulite

mmm...it sounds very familiar right?? maybe i should start a hexalogy of the cellulite....like star wars...and make it into a movie and all.....*winks* maybe i will be famous like George Lucas and then i can quit my current job and go to hollywood and be a superstar? *laughs* guess i am day-dreaming again...but then again....at least i have BIG dreams....*laughs*

anyway.. talking about BIG.... cellulite is BIG...at the right and wrong place!!! let's talk about the right place...yup yup..she's got the boobs!! actually all along i know she has the boobs..but didnt know it was that big...till (1) she kept banging her boobs against me when we were dancing in clubs (DUHZ, what the fuck??) and (2) she wore something that showed her cleaveage ( i reckon it's because she knew guy E will be there!! haha!!) acutually come to think of it..her boobs are soft...*laughs* i knew because she kept banging her boobs against me!! the wrong place...she's got a HUGE tummy!! yes....all girls have tummy..it's rather hard to have a flat tummy and i admit i have a tummy too...but her's HUGE!! VERY VERY VERY VERY HUGE!! this has been certified by a few others....not just me...i can recall...one of them telling me..."wah when i sat on the couch..and she stood beside me..i turned and all i saw was the tummy leh" *laughs laughs laughs* although she does admit that she's gotten a big tummy..but somhow i got the feeling that she feels that mine is as big as hers....*sob sob* and it's not true!!! everytime i dance in the club with her...if we were to dance slightly closer, not only can i feel her boobs banging against me..i can also feel her tummy banging against me..and i have to suck in to prevent that from happening....*sighz*

mmm..then cellulite "zhong she qing you"...*grins* there was once...we were supposed to go clubbing..and it's our usual clubbing khakis...me, her and someone else....so kinda boring right? but we have been doing that anyway...so she asked me to ask guy E out...and so i told her... "aiyah, guy E said no money and then need to work the next day lah" and she said... "tell him i buy him drinks lah..." WAH!!! cellulite buying guy E drinks??? previously, she said...it should be the guy who buys the ladies drinks and not vice versa...(maybe you can read "cellulite again" to understand this better)but now..she's willing to buy guy E drinks?? just to see him?? *laughs* wah..i ask her..."wanna go zouk?" and she said expensive...i asked her "shall we buy drinks and share?" she said expensive...but when guy E said "no money liao" and immediately she said "i treat!!" see...how zhong she....*mutter mutter*

talking bout guy E...think cellulite is DAMN interested in him...first, everytime we go clubbing..she will go.."are you asking your guy E?" please loh..she's the one who's so bloody interested in him...dont call guy E MINE...always asking if he's going...so desperate to see him but yet always calling him mine...DUHZ !! anyway..finally...there's this time...we happened to hang out together...*laughs* then because that night there were more people...people who are willing to spend $$$ and buy drinks...we bought like 6 jugs of housepours...*grins* then me and another friend started to drink and got high..*laughs* then according to cellulite...she had to drink very quickly to prevent us from drinking and getting more high...and which is why in the end..she herself got a little dizzy...but when i asked another sober friend...my sober friend replied " no leh...she just keep asking me to drink..." *laughs* she asked people to drink also can get dizzy and high ah? *laughs* and then she started her koala bear behavior... i thought i saw her clinging onto guy E...i thought i saw wrongly...but then i have 2 other pairs of eyes who saw that....then a pair of eyes saw her give guy E a massage!! in the middle of a club?? *laughs* and when i asked her why did she do that..she said..." guy E falling asleep...wnat to wake him up mah!!" *laughs* i thought beating is a more effective way to wake a person up? then another pair of sober eyes thought she was kissing guy E but then on closer observation...nope..not kissing...stupid stupid...but from 3 pairs of eyes concluded that she was ALL OVER HIM!! but guy E didnt seem to show any interest...mmm....and when i confronted her on her clinging on to guy E...she DENIED EVERYTHING and said that she only had vague memory of what happened..and i insisted that she was all over guy E...well..if she likes to live in a state of denial...carry on....*laughs* and the most ultimate part was this..she and guy E was waiting outside the toilet for me...then i came out and she went in...and because i was rather tired as had been taking care of a merlion...i borrowed guy E's shoulder to lean on...and the moment she came out of the toilet...she IMMEDIATELY began her koala bear behavior..and me being the kind one just moved away and grinned....*grins*

then recently, this is our conversation over MSN:

me: why you keep saying guy E is mine? do i look like i like guy E?

she: you ask yourself lah...

me: no leh...i ask already..i dont...(seriously speaking..i dont..we've been friends for like 8 years??)

she: you sure or not? you dont ah...maybe i should go after him to "ji fa" you....(hahahaha....you like you want to go after..say you like and want to go after lah..what to "ji fa" me..fucker!!)

and from here..she went on and on about going after him to make me jealous...to see if i really like him...to see if anything could happen.blah blah...wah....as if i really care...but then again..i do care..because got SHOW to watch ah...*laughs*

and for dont know what reason....she seemed to think that EVERYONE recognizes her!! if you have read "cellulite" you would have known that she claimed that the guy who approached princess mel approached her as well and all the crap...and 2 weeks later...when that same guy sort of like walked towards us in the club...she said to me...." i think that T guy recognizes me leh...he's coming my way...how? " oh my GOD!!!why does she think he recognizes her? i mean..that T guy is always semi-drunk...and so he's going around chatting up with girls..(this is from mine and princess mel's observation) so he's just being crappy....but he recognized her....i seriously doubt it....and let me illustrate the most classic case...there was this week...i was being naughty and sort of like flirted around with this guy...grins* anyway...the following week, when we saw that guy again and he was sort of like dancing near us to get our attention...my dear cellulite can tell me this..." hey..look! it's that guy from last week...think he recognized ME!! " i mean ii was the one who flirted with him...so under normal circumstances..shouldnt he recognize ME and NOT HER???

actually i do feel a little guilty and bad for bitching about my friend...but then again...this is by popular demand!! *laughs* but once again i must emphasize...i DONT HATE cellulite....just that she's so bitchable and i'm just so bitchy and am a BIG MEANIE!! *grins*

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dont have any specific topic now...but yet i feel like posting an entry...but dont know what to write about...so i shall write whatever comes to my mind now.... *blank*

*laughs* think i very lame...anyway...i realized i have a bad habit..i like to peek at other people's smses...hahaha...especially in MRT trains...when it's crowded and the person next to me is messaging..i have the tendancy to lean over and read what that person is texting!! *laughs* was wondering if one fine day, would that stranger give me a stern look and say "hey!! you are invading my privacy!!" *laughs* if that happened..i think i would love to explode on the spot!! *laughs* saw this message from this guy..." dear, i would change for your sake..." that's about all i can catch...if only i could catch the whole message and the reply..that would be awesome....*laughs*

my dark lover is back...met up with him to go church today..then we went shopping....wah...go shopping with him i will go broke..almost everything i tried..he said " good, buy! " wah like that horz..i will go broke leh..everything also buy....i need to go shopping with another friend... MR LIEW...go shopping with him good..he will tell me... " keep in view... " then i keep keep keep..and i wont buy....can save money!!!

think i'm becoming more and more lian ah....very very very very very very very very very very very very scared...i dont want to be an ah lian... firstly, had the idea of getting a tatto at the top of my chest...come to think of it...like mamasan ...wah...can die!! secondly, was at royal sporting house today...then they were playing some Groove Coverage songs...and i could actually sing to MOST of the songs!!! techno songs sia..cannot cannot cannot....then after that...i decided to purchase a puma top...which is not on sale... (stupid...it's the great singapore sale and that top is not on sale..then dont call it the great singapore sale...call it the limited-to-selected-item-great-singapore-sale) and so when paying for the item at the cashier, i was bargaining with the lady... " why this one no sale ah? can lah..you give me 20% discount lah...i know puma popular..but popular also must have sale mah...it's all computerized ah..then you give me staff discount lah..can lah...give sale lah...okay okay..10%? " wah..not only have i began to behave and think like an ah lian...i have also been auntified!! cannot cannot cannot...can die can die can die....HELP!!!

mmmm...was swimming at this private pool on saturday....suddenly an ang-moh appeared with a not-ang-moh-and-not-chinese woman...think she looked like a filipino...initially i thought i was seeing things..because i thought i saw her breast and butt....then on concentrated observation, i realized that her swimming costume is one amazing creation....the bikini top could only cover her nipples!!! the sides of her breasts are clearly visible because they are big....and then i saw her butt cheeks...her bikini bottom is a g-string!! wah....amazing...you can call me suaku or whatever..but this is the first time i saw such bikini...but if you ask me...she looks like the filipino maid of that ang-moh leh....*laughs* oops!! no offence to anyone....

anyway....it's well-known that drivers of super nice cars are nomally not as pretty or handsome as their cars...maybe it's not well-known..but thus far, whenever i see nice cars along the road..i would speed up to take a look at the driver and i always have to drive away in disappointment...great disappointment...it happened that on Friday, my brother was driving...and we saw a super nice BMW 6 series convertible...i was so excited that i told my brother to speed up as i want to see the driver...and so he did...and when we were beside that car..i turned and was expecting to find disappointment...instead the driver is CUTE!!! finally...finally..my prayers have been answered...finally a super nice car with a super cute driver!!! but just too bad...that's all i can do.... LOOK!!!

*singing* i can see it in the stars across the sky....dreamed a hundred thousand dreams before...now i finally realized...that i've been waiting all my life..for this moment to arrive...finally..i believe *bows & waves*

what a journey...

went to work without my usual companion...because when i messaged her to tell her that i'm fit as a fiddle and ready to go...she replied to say she's not..and dont know why..i just walked out of my house after i'm ready..mmm..normally i would have sat down at my sofa and waited for her...and so i was alone... *singing* lonely...i'm mister lonely..i have nobody...to call my own.... *laughs* but my journey to work has been quite different...to go to work..i have to take a bus to the mrt station...take the NEL and then change to the EWL to get to my workplace...

for my bus journey....it's only a 10 mins ride from my bus-stop to the train station..but the moment i got up the bus, found a seat...and i fell asleep within 10 seconds!! *laughs* am so so so so so so so so tired...slept around 1am last night...was helping my tuition kid with her essay and her sister with the appeal letter....mmm..i think i am a very responsible and good teacher....*laughs* anyway i was woken up by a very sweet ringtone...not sure what's the music..but it's a very sweet music..was expecting it to be from a young girl's handphone..but when i turned towards the sound... wah!! it's an AUNTIE !!! *laughs* not that i stereotyped aunties....but was not expecting to see an auntie ya....and she's holding a PDA phone!!

on the train..i was hoping to grab a seat so that i could sleep all the way....but sadly, the chance of getting one is almost ZERO... *laughs* and so i stood at one corner, leaning against the side that is near the door...mmm...kinda hard to explain..but it's like....the door and the train forms a right angle and i was the right angle...got it?? anyway..i was there...and falling asleep...and i think i did fall asleep...and when i woke up..i realized that an UGLY MAN or rather uncle was standing next to me..leaning against the door..and he was so DAMN BLOODY close!! what the fuck???!!! although he didnt touch me or anything..but i dont understand why must he stand so close to me...and so..i shifted myself out of the right angle...but sighz...right in front of me..is another guy... (luckily this one quite alright....*laughs*) and so i have no choice but to balance myself betwen these 2 men!! sianz ah...i wanted to lean and sleep ah....*mutter mutter*

and since i cannot sleep..i started to observe who's who in the train...saw this group of teens...4 guys and 1 girl...the girl..quite cute...sweet and cute...the guys...no comments... *laughs* actually one of them quite alright..but rather short...guess God is really fair...dont really know what they were talking about...but they were talking in such typical poly lingo...then suddenly, i realize..one of the guy doesnt have a ear !! i was so shocked.....the place where an ear supposed to be...was just a hole...mmm...guess it's either an accident or it's natural by birth...got a very strong urge to look inside that hole though... *laughs*

then i saw these 2 guys....not ugly...quite alright...they looked like the kind i would want or rather dont mind as a boyfriend...they looked established and sophisticated...*grins* but looked a little gayish...*laughs* but one of them has a deep sexy voice...couldnt catch what they were talking..but could hear him drooning away..in his deep sexy voice...wah...mesmerized...then heard the word "clubbing" and was trying my best to hear where do they normally club...*laughs* but too bad...my ears were not sharp enough... DAMN!!

sighz...

mmm....what a word to start the day...actually have been using this work to start almost everyday for the past few weeks...have been feeling down...really down..actually "down" is not the word...but somehow...it seemed appropriate...maybe i am stressed...but not exactly stressed...i think i am sianz...sianz of everything...why am i so sianz..also dont know..maybe my menses is coming again...*sighz*

nothing much happening in my life...nothing much exciting..actually got lah...had a good clubbing experience last sat...but then dont feel like harping on it...because i seemed to have told everyone about it...and it's like nothing special or good anymore...but it could always bring a evil grin to my face whenver i thought of it...*laughs*

feel like going shopping because it's the great singapore sale..but somehow..the items on sale did not really catch my eyes..nothing to buy...suddenly have the urge to go ktv...*laughs* but then i think it's just a sudden urge...would go away real soon...want to go sentosa...want to go away to an island and relax...under the sun...without any care...

*singing*

red & yellow & pink & green ... purple & orange & blue ... i can sing a rainbow...sing a rainbow...sing a rainbow or two...

dress sense

today...while working...heard the HR manager "complaining" to the contracts manager... "wah..these people...cannot wear proper clothes to work ah..told them no jeans, no shorts..still wear..then the security guards stop her..and she argued with the security guard saying that she's short...so cannot wear long skirts as she will look funny...aiyo" when i finished hearing this...i burst out laughing!! mmm...not funny ah..but to me..funny leh...

since on the topic of dressing...mmm...i think the dress sense of some singaporeans sucks...and maybe i am one of them...*laughs* but i would think i am one of those who dresses well...*laughs* gotten some compliments from friends and my own flesh-and-blood brother!!! my own flesh-and-blood brother once said... "you not pretty lah..but luckily you know how to dresss...so still got hope...but still not pretty!!" *laughs* actually when he said that to me..i was fucking happy...up in clouds 9 already...

anyway...my mum always comment that some young ladies dress like an auntie..but i always tell her... "no horz..it's you all aunties like to squeeze into our clothes...if you buy our clothes...then we wear what? auntie's clothes? kids' clothes? cannot right..so we continue to buy our clothes...those clothes which the auntie die die must squeeze in..." which i think i'm bloody correct...tell me...when you speak about clothes from "mango" and "zara"...images of sophisticated young ladies will come to mind and not permed hair market aunties right? but when you go into those shops...what do you see...sophisticated young ladies AND permed hair market aunties looking at the same short skirt...atrocious!!

nowadays..i see the kids losing the kids' sense of dressing..they are beginning to dress like adults...all the funny types of clothings..i dont like leh...i still prefer kiddish clothings for kids...and teenagers are looking at high-heels and sexy camisoles...wah..how can? if kids wear teenagers, teenagers wear adults, auntie wear young adults...then i wear what?? ah-ma clothings ah? matching tops and pants? dont want lah....i still young leh...

then horz..i dont like it when people wear clashing colors or patters...aiyoh..i know fashion magazines said clashing colors and patterns are hot..but then horz..must see if the clashing colors and patterns can clash nicely or not..if clash till crash..what the fuck?? how can you mixed green and yellow stripes shirt with flowery skirt and purple shoes? cannot lah...then some people...top is black, bottom is blue and shoe is pink...what the fuck??

but the most disgusting thing is when a figure-not-so-nice person squeezing into a tight-till-cant-breathe top/skirt/dress and all the spare tyres are wobbling as they walked... *DUHZ*