hannah votes 2006

yay! finally i can get to vote...hahahaha...why am i so happy to vote? seriously, i have no freaking idea...maybe it's because i had never voted before in my whole life...*laughs* i was living in bedok which is under aljunied for like 10 years..and aljunied is/was one of those walkover constituencies...but anyhow was too young..then i moved to hougang...and when i shifted it was under cheng san...and so during GE 2001..i was old enough and was getting excited...then my area was grouped under aljunied AGAIN and so no voting *mutter mutter*...and now the worker's party is contesting against the PAP....yay!!



these are the candidates for my constitutency...frankly speaking..i dont know any of them...hahahaha! well..for the PAP candidates...george yeo is a familiar face but am not sure what is he doing now...then again, maybe because he looked like my neighbor...*laughs* cynthia puah always hang out at the void deck as we have a RC center there...zainul abidin is my granny's favorite as my granny said he's friendly and nice...for the WP candidates..i know nuts about them...but i think the sylvia lim look like a capable lady..from the picture of course...*laughs*

aiyoh...see how political unsound i am....given such mentality and political intelligence...how do i cast that significant vote of mine??? it will determine our governement and the way singapore is run and yet, here i am talking about the politicains based on looks? tsk tsk tsk...i am so superficial...think it's time i read up on them...so that i can cast that significant vote...*laughs* i feel so important suddenly...hahahaha! i wonder what would the candidates do to rally votes from us....also, what would the parliament be if WP actually won the aljunied GRC? mmmm....i really wonder...

my dad was telling me....sylvia lim and gang is a strong contestant..and it will be a tough fight for PAP and it's going to be interesting...another interesting fight would be potong pasir - chiam see tong vs seetoh...tough fight as chiam may not win this round...was surprised that the opposition party actually contested in AMK, our prime minister's area...but my dad was saying...it's a sure-win for PAP....the voting will only determine how supportive singaporeans are of our current PM...mmm...will i get into trouble for this? *shrugs* so interesting horz...but my parents always say..." aiyah, it's so boring to watch election and parliament of singapore...always the few guys talking and the rest nodding their heads...look at taiwan, so many abuses hurled at each other..so many days of campaign and so many fights...machiam watch movies.. " *laughs*

anyway, voting is compulsory and confidential in singapore..and so i wil have to vote and i will not tell others who i vote for...*laughs*

the number - 3035

Take a look at these 2 pictures....saw what i have boxed??? *grins*

yeah...it's the winning number....the one on the right is saturday's 4-D results and the one on the left is my 4-D ticket...*grins* and this is my FIRST time buying 4-D and bingo...i strike!! FIRST PRIZE sia...aint i lucky? *grins*

as per my previous entry..my ah-ma had been really really lucky..she had been blessing each and every single one of us...like i have said...aunties had won 4-D back in malaysia..and just last week, someone had a dream..in that dream, my granny was telling my auntie that she wanted her passport..she wanted to go singapore...and so everyone started to buy her passport number in malaysia..but another auntie said.." no no, ah ma is coming to singapore...we must buy 4-D...her number is coming" and lo and behold..her number has come and it is the top prize...*amazed*

actually, i had meant to buy her numbers for quite some time..but havent really gotten down to do it..and then yesterday, i went to my auntie's house to collect something from her..and she was talking about 4-D and so i asked her to bring me to buy...and then initially, i wanted to buy her death certificate number..but my auntie suggested to me to buy this number...this number is the house number of the "house" we burnt to give it to my granny..and so i agreed...lucky i agreed but sadly, i didnt buy a lot...*laughs*

this is the winning ticket:



i bought only 2 bucks..but guess the amount i won???? not saying it here...in case i have people asking me for treats or potential thieves...*laughs* go figure it out...

i hate SPC!! *argh*

i really hate them..i hate them for what they did to me...i hate them for giving stupid and lame excuses..i hate them for giving me the i-dont-know-so-i-cant-do attitude..i hate them for whatever whatever whatever whatever..argh!!! i'm talking about the one near kovan... :)

almost every petrol station in singapore provides manual washing of cars and internal vacuuming...and it's not that expensive..the prices are rather similiar...washing cost about 6 bucks and vacuuming cost about 4 bucks...seeing that the car was so darn dirty...i drove it to that SPC petrol station, intending to have it washed and vacuum...

well...nothing went wrong with the washing...but when i asked for vacuuming, one of the guy told me.." sorry, we dont vacuum now, come back tomorrow okay? " blardy hell!! what the fuck???!! come back tomorrow? did he think that i just spent my time driving my car to petrol stations to have it cleaned and vacuumed?? i was so pissed that i replied.." no, i want to vacuum NOW! " and then the man got the cheek to tell me... " we dont vacuum at night and the person doing it is sleeping " what rubbish? if you dont do it at night..indicate on the price list and why is that person sleeping??? and so i replied " you didnt tell me that vacuuming is not available at night...and besides, why is that person sleeping? wake him up to vacuum for me..i want to vacuum now and i dont want to come back tomorrow... " seeing that i was so "determined"..the man went somewhere to look for that guy...and then later he came back and told me..." sorry, he's drunk already " and i was so pissed i replied..." so? i dont care if he's drunk or dead..i want to vacuum now... is his job getting drunk? where's your manager? " and the man replied... " he's from the morning shift...and the manager is not around... " this is so infuriating..how could they tell me the person in-charge of vacuuming was drunk and sleeping???!! fucking hell sia...so angry...what kind of rubbish is this?? so i insisted that one of them do the vaccuming for me..and guess what was the reply? " sorry miss, we all dont know how to vaccum...only he knows and he's sleeping already.... come back tomorrow " what the fuck? what is this "coming back tomorrow" thingy going on? did they really think i was so darn free that i could just "come back tomorrow"? very very pisssed...and so i said... " if dont know..LEARN...what's the point of having so many people around if you people refused to learn?? waste of money and resources... even i can vacuum if you bring the vacuum cleaner to me... " what a bunch of useless idiots SPC has employed!! in the end, i paid them for the car wash...and they told me.." you can come back tomorrow to vacuum... " and to which i replied..." come back tomorrow? I'm not coming back here ANYMORE... " argh!!!! this is so annoying!!!!!!!!!!!

how could they give such lame and stupid excuses just to stop me from vacuuming??? this is so horrible...i mean if they really dont feel like doing extra work and earning extra money..they could have said the vacuum is spoilt...and guess what, this excuse was used by another SPC petrol station along upper changi road...this is so infuriating...i am NOT going back to any SPC petrol station for any washing and vacuuming anymore...*pissed*

good things that happened...

indeed my granny's passing away is a sad thing...a very sad situation...everyone's sad....BUT she had indeed blessed each and every of us in every other little ways.... *smilez*

well, firstly, i must say..her funeral had gathered all the relatives together...when i was at her wake, that was the FIRST time that i have seen all my cousins of all age and sexes...all of them...i havent met or talked to them for donkey years..some of them dont even know who i am...but this funeral had gathered all of us together...talked to a few young cousins...so cute and funny...and i even sort of found a new clubbing khaki..hahahaha..one of my cousin live in singapore and we exchanged numbers and i could see ourselves going out more often...*laughs* just went velvet with her on thursday night..it was fabulous..she and her friends are damn freaking fun!!! also, i have seen some aunties whom i've never seen for a long time..and all the females of the family could just sit one corner and chat the night away while keeping vigilance..which i thought was really good family bonding...

well, not only had my granny brought about family togetherness..she had also brought wealth to us...*laughs* many of us have actually struck 4-D!! *laughs* one auntie strucked twice and in total i think she won 30,000....even my mum manged to win 300 bucks...although little but i think there are more to come as the numbers my granny gave is always appearing in random order for the past 2 weeks..*laughs* another auntie strucked the first prize...20,000!! although it's little money here and there...but hey, all these numbers were from my grandmother in one way or another...way to go granny!! more money please...*laughs*

in addition, my granny gave each of us some money...*grins* for the "internal" grandchildren..each of us will get 1000!! and for the "external" grandchildren, each family will get 1000! then each sons will get about 3000 and my mum got some jewellery and about 300 bucks!! although they are in ringgits as my granny is a malaysian..but hey, it's good money..i am not going to spend it at all...i even saved the money which she gave me as red packet this year...these money will be passed on to my children..if i have any that is...*laughs*

other than good things that happened..weird things happened too on her 7th day..it was believed that the spirit will retun on the 7th day to visit sons and daughters...well, apparently, many aunties heard footsteps outside the rooms on that night...antoher auntie heard someone talking beside her ear and my dad saw that the spoon was grossly displaced on the table...all these are actually "evidences" that my granny had returned the previous night to "visit" her sons and daughters...i have no idea if it's just human imagination but then again, i guess it's a way to tell us that granny was actually "safe and sound" in another world...*smilez*

thou shalt not commit adultery

one of the 10 commandments...according to my church, the 10 commandment no longer hold because Jesus has died for us and so we are no longer sinners...*pause* okay, i know this statement will bring many arguements from many people...but am not going there...this is what my church taught me and so that's it. period.

anyway, over this weekend, i have seen 2 cases of adultery...*gasps*

Case#1
Where: Plaza Singapura
When: approximately 845pm
Who: my uncle's friend
What:
i was with my brothers and uncle...we were going to have our dinner soon...as we were going up the escalator, my uncle saw his friend and greeted him...he went forward and said "hi" while we stood behind and watched..my brother commented:" wah, the wife quite pretty...eh, on 2nd thoughts, not wife, confirmed mistress " then we were just sniggering and all..but indeed, the "wife" is pretty...good figure and complexion...fair and slim..the guy, poseur - wore pants...so disgusting...to me, white pants only look good on korean actors...*laughs* anyway, later my uncle came back and said:" aiyoh, so horrible, he's got a wife and the wife's quite pretty...what audacity...with kids somemore...tsk tsk tsk " apparently, he's some CEO of some developer's company...and my uncle wonders why was he with another lady...

Case #2
Where: Drama Center at the Library
When: approximately 930pm
Who: my ex-boss
What: i went to watch "The Magic Fundoshi" with my uncle..it was a nice play..quite funny and interesting..anyway, the play finished and we were walking out..suddenly i saw this botak ang-moh..thought he looked really familiar...and the girl he was with..also looked familiar..then on closer examination..i realized...HE'S MY EX-BOSS!!! he's like the project executive of a BIG IT MNC...and he has even showed me picture of his wife and kids...but there he was with another chinese girl, my age, and i realized she's from my jc...hands interlocking...frankly speaking, i almost fainted...what is the world coming to??? is he a sugar daddy?? the girl is not pretty at all...rather plain-looking and a friend of mine suggested that she's good in bed...*laughs* i went home and checked my jc year book..and realized that she's from class 26/98...i dont really know her..but i dont know why i thought she looked familiar..she must have hung out with people i know...i asked my ex-colleague to find out if my ex boss is really having an affiar..but she's not sure who she can check with...now i wished i knew someone from 26/98...this is BIG NEWS...

why is everyone committing adultery? is it the trend now? i really pity the wife..but i also pity the mistress if she's not aware that the guy is married...but if she is...she's a slut...*laughs* actually, if i caught my friend's boyfriend with another girl..i wont be so angry..as it's only a love relationship..but a marriage is like a vow of whatever...they have taken the vow and so it's a responsibility to not betray each other..and to make matters worse are the kids...imagine, if it's the kids who saw their daddies or mummies in the arms of another...how would they feel and what would they think??

actually, many people have asked..." if one day, you found out that your boyfriend has betrayed you..would you forgive him? " frankly speaking...i dont know...maybe if i really really love him..i might...but for sure, i would rather hear it from his mouth than to discover it myself or via others...that's more painful...by hearing it from his mouth..at least i will feel that he's feeling remorseful and decided to tell me the truth...*laughs* self-delusion? maybe...but then it's a good way i think...*shrugs*

THOU SHALT NOT COMMIT ADULTERY!!!!!!!

in loving memory...

it's really really really really really sad..to see someone close lying in a coffin..no matter how peaceful and comfortable that person seems...it's still very sad to be in that kind of situation...just attended my paternal granny's funeral...and i hope it's the last funeral i have to attend for a loved one but i know it's impossible....

uncle called on saturday morning...7am..i was the one answering the phone...was still complaining about the "idiot" who called so early..but when i picked up the phone and heard the news, i had no reactions..all i can say was "orh" and then guess what, i went back to sleep...*laughs* then at 730am, my dad called again and said the same thing...this time, it settled into my mind and i went to tell my mum...but somehow, i had not much feelings...not sad, not shocked..nothing....maybe because wasnt very close to her as she's always in malaysia and i'm in singapore...am so blardy heartless...dad was in china then, coming back on that very night...when i picked him up from the airport, he looked listless...on that very night, my parents and brothers drove in to malaysia...for me, i waited for my uncle till tuesday night...

when i arrived in malacca, my granny's house..her coffin was placed in the main hall...offered some incense to her...and went in to take a look at her...she looked pretty, peaceful and comfortable...but frankly speaking, at that very moment, i was so afraid that she would open her eyes...*laughs* the picture she had before the coffin was really pretty..she was smiling and looked happy...and there were flowers around her picture...she had told us that she wanted flowers...so that she would look pretty...*smilez* so cute right?? then went around greeting all my uncles and aunties...after which i sat by the coffin and started to burn incense paper...as i burnt i started to cry...dont ask me why...maybe it's the smoke, but at that very moment...suddenly i realized, my granny would not respond to me anymore..she would not walk anymore..i cant say "gong xi fa cai" to her anymore...she's gone...just like that..the very last time i saw her was during chinese new year...she looked fine to me...could even chat with us in the kitchen...went to the kitchen where she's always there...saw the chair she always sit in...went into the room she used to sleep...and she's no longer there...the more i burnt, the harder i cried...i could even imagine her calling me..i could hear her voice calling my name...but i know it's just my imagination because she would never call me anymore...my auntie came over and asked if i had taken a look at granny..and i said yes..and then she asked :"Do you miss her?" i could only answer her with my tears...oh, something interesting occur when i was burning the incense paper...as i was just burning...suddenly i could hear a "gong" sound..it was very loud, even my mum and auntie could hear..and they asked if i knocked against something but i didnt...then after a while, we heard the "gong" sound again!!! and i think it's coming from the urn which i was burning the paper...my auntie took a look around the coffin and found nothing unusual..and my mum commented that my granny acknowledged my presence and my auntie commented that she's happy that i'm burning the incense paper for her...these comments brought more tears from me....

it was really interesting...in malaysia, they do not actually remove all the water of the corpse and inject embalment liquid...they actually refrigerate the coffin to preserve the body...and so my granny's tummy was actually bloated...and every now and then, we would have to wipe the glass as it would be misted as water vapor condense on the cool surface...also, normally, all the "necessary stuff" will be put into the coffin and it will be sealed but over there, they actually sort of like open the coffin again to put the "necessary stuff" before the coffin was officially closed and sealed...but luckily, there was no ordour...

the next day, we had the rituals...not sure what we were doing..just following instructions from this man who passed joss sticks to us and asked us to kneel, stand, pray, walk around...*laughs* and dont konw why, the smoke from the joss sticks was so strong that my eyes were so painful...and it seemed to only affect me...i was wearing blue and was wearing the "hat"...so hot!!! most of the time, my dad and uncle was "leading" the pack as they are the sons...we grandchildren just followed around...very tiring and boring...*shrugs* after the rituals, it's time to seal the coffin...we all took our turns to take one last look at granny..everyone cried non-stop...and my aunties were bawling...it's really really really really really sad...before i even looked at my granny..i already started tearing..that would really be the last time i see her...i took one last look at her..and i said in my heart.."ah ma...bye bye"...then we all started to cry while some rituals were going on...and we just cried and cried and cried...the tears seemed to flow non-stop!!!

then it's time for the coffin to leave the house..at that moment..all of us had to kneel on one side..and we were not allowed to see the movement of the coffin out of the house...apparently, according to customs, when the coffin moved, the sould might moved along with it..and if the soul saw the family members crying, it would just refused to leave...but very funnily, everytime the coffin moved, we are not allow to see..which i really dont understand why...but then again, i just followed..better to be safe than sorry...the coffin was put into the van and we even took a picture!! really hope i would get to see the picture...then we walked behind the van for a short distance...everyone was just crying....oh, actaully, all of us were wearing slippers and we had to wear socks OVER the slippers...very interesting...

my granny was to be buried and not cremated...guess there more than enough land in malaysia...apparently her grave is just 2 graves away from my grandpa...we reached the cemetery...and once again, was not allowed to see the coffin being carried to the grave...then we walked to the grave...the priest said some things..then we offer more joss sticks...then we were asked to throw some soil into the hole to signify the end of the burial and we were told to leave...i find it quite weird...arent we suppose to at least see that the coffin is fully buried??? and before we leave the cemetery, we had to take out the socks and throw it away...then when we reached home...we had to form a circle around a stack of paper money..and made lots of noise while it's burning...apparently, this is to prevent "others" from stealing the money from our granny...and so we hit planks of metal with wooden sticks...it was so tiring...we were there for like 1 hour plus..as the paper money was so thick and high...and i was suggesting to use recording next time..record sounds of metal hitting and just played it via some hi-fi...and we could all just sit around....*laughs*

i asked around for my granny's last moments...well, she was in hospital for the past few weeks...for an operations on her colon..apparently she had colon cancer..but the doctors initially diagnosed that her kidneys were failing but they were in fact strong...stupid doctors..anyway, she told one of my aunties that during her stay in the hospital, she kept seeing images of gardens and children...actually, she passed away on 01 Apr 06 at 245am...she just got discharged from the hospital that afternoon..and she was all fine...and then at around 10 plus..she said she's tired and wanted to go to bed..and then suddenly she had difficulties breathing...and so my aunties and cousins who were in malaysia rushed to her house..and kept calling her..but she didnt open her eyes...and then they asked her if she's waiting for my uncle who's in china with my dad..and she actually cried...my uncle's her favorite son...then when my cousin called her..she cried..and before she actually passed away, she opened her eyes slightly and then she's gone...and my cousin told me..minutes before my granny stopped breathing, she saw white images floating into the room....i guess they were angels...to bring my granny to heaven...*smilez*

before i left for singapore...i went to offer joss sticks to her picture which was still in the main hall and again, i said..."ah ma, bye bye"...and tears rolled down my cheeks again...