tattoos!!!

getting a tattoo has been on my mind from the beginning of this year and it's still on my mind...actually it's on and off my mind...whenver i see tattoos...i will remember...or rather i would have the urge to get it...but after a while..i just forget about it...*laughs*

i thought having a tattoo looks cool....look at eminem, mark macgarth, chester of linkin park, damon alban of blur.... and many more...they look damn cool with their tattoos...not ah beng at all....*laughs* or maybe it's just a singapore stereotyping issue...anyone with tattoos are labeled as "ah beng" & "ah lian"....but whenever i see my friends getting them..i get the urge again....BUT i'm very very afraid of the pain...can you imagine...the sound of the drill...before the tattooist poke that machine into your flesh... i can imagine myself...screaming even before the tattooist does anything...*sighz* which is why i once suggested to get a tattoo only when giving birth...both are equally painful that it would halve the pain that i have to go through...*laughs*

anyway...was thinking where and what to tattoo on myself..it has to be in a place and something which i would NEVER regret...because although a tattoo can be removed via some laser thingy..but it would leave a scar...i am ugly enough...no need scars to uglify myself further...

should i do something like these:

thought this was rather cool...

would do it in black..no colors and maybe slightly lower...

this look quite cool too..simple and nice...

this is cute!!!

i think basically, i like simple and small tattoos....*laughs* not so painful...and not so obvious...but i really doubt i have the courage to do it...because...it's BLOODY PAINFUL ...but i really have that urge leh...aiyo...how how how???

7-letter word...

the 7-letter word...A-L-C-O-H-O-L ...do really do wonders...*grins* actually would not exactly says that it's wonders that were created...sometimes...it's wonders, miracles..but most times..it could be disasters and castastrophe..

wonder and miracles happened when one actually benefitted from the 7-letter word....which i think it's rare..what good can happen? a ball-less guy managed to talk to the girl he's been eyeing for 10 years? a introvert lady dancing on a bar-top? *laughs* but i think castrastrophe also too exaggerating...getting in fights? getting pregnant? being raped? mmm...actually being raped is castrastrophic!!! if i was raped..i would die...i cannot live with that fact that i was raped... eh..this is besides the point here...

am not exactly a good drinker..in fact..after one glass of anything...i mean alcoholic anything..i will get red, bloody red ...and people will start asking... "hey..you okay? you look drunk?you need to rest?" WTF...i only drank 1 glass leh..do i look that weak to you people..of course i am okay...some said it's healthy to turn red because it means your blood circulation is good...but i once chanced upon some chinese health show and the experts commented that turning red is an indication that your liver is not able to take in the amount of alcohol...it's not a good sign...*sighz* when me and mum heard this..she asked... " you turn red easily right? so you better not drink anymore..not good for health" *cries* but i like to drink leh...how?

anyway...someone got really drunk lately...she didnt drink that much...but it's enough to send her to the toilet to puke non-stop...this friend of mine... amazing....she can puke from 2am to 3pm...after puking her dinner and whatever she has in her stomach...she's still puking...or having the feeling of puking...this is bad ...real bad ... ** you dont know the power of the dark side** haha!!

another person started to cling on to a guy after she went high....*laughs* actually i wonder if the alcohol gave her the courage to be close to that guy...*grins* because..for the past few times that we went clubbing..she has been asking me on EVERY BLOODY OCCASION to ask this guy along...aiyo..why ask him..he's not that handsome, no car, no money, still a student...so desperate meh? but after a few glassess... all of us can see her CLINGING to my guy friend...what a show...we were enjoying it...and the best part is...she's in a state of denial...*laughs* she said...she only LEAN not CLING .... anyway...if she prefer to be in that state i wouldnt mind....but to quote another person... SHE'S ALL OVER HIM!! haha!!

as for me..whenever i get high...i get horny!! fuck!! this is bad...real bad.... i've joined the dark side...actually i also dont know why...even my friend confirmed that she feels that i get real horny when i am high...but luckily..my horniness is short-term...i will not go around asking for people to whatever whatever whatever...*laughs* neither do i need to get something to whatever whatever whatever...it's just a moment of folly? *laughs* but actually i didnt do anything wrong while i was high...did i?? *winks*

mmm...by the way, for your info, i'm allergic to vodka....dont ask me why...i have experimented myself..and seriously....whenever i took vodka, i will have rashes for the next 2 days.... if you ask me..this is the dumbest thing that could happen...VODKA IS ONE OF THE MOST POPULAR DRINKS!! sianz..so i've developed a love for tequila....barcardi....whiskey... bourbon... but am still a lousy drinker....

mmm...this is another boliao entry..but what the fuck...*grins*

boliao sia...

mmm...i did the most boliao things of my life on Friday, 28 May 2005...because for the past few days..i have been seeing a lot of mazda 3 along the roads...and so on a Friday morning...i told myself this... " i am going to count the number of mazda 3s i see today!!!" so from the moment i step out of my house..my mission for the day is to count the number of mazda 3s i see!!! can someone tell me..i am not doing something boliao but intelligent? *laughs* i doubt anyone would do that...because if they do..i think they are equally boliao!!

well....at the end of the day....i've seen 17 mazda 3s!!! all different colors..but all mazda 3s...mmm...here's a picture of the car that i have been counting...



mmm..maybe should start to count the number of BMWs and WRXs next...mmm...wah..i really very boliao...*laughs*

the winning ticket

yeah..The Reds (Liverpool) held the cup again...didnt watch the game...but here's the gist of the match... within 2 mins from the start of the game...AC Milan scored the first goal....3 goals were scored during the first half...by AC Milan...then during the 2nd half, Liverpool scored 3 goals within 6 mins and it's a draw...went into extra time and then penalty...and Liverpool won 3-2 on penalty...

well....as per my previous entry...my friend cum huge fan of Liverpool gave me 2 messages in the wee hours...

4:39am: wah lau, 3-3 final score...nvm, pool come back from 3 goals down..going into extra time..so exciting!!

5:34am: guess what...pool won 3-2 on penalty kick-off! haha... Yeah!! =)

didnt read these 2 messages till 720am when i woke up...

well...as i have mentioned...i bought a bet on a draw game...and here's the winning ticket:

heh heh...i bought 10 bucks and i will be paied 31.50 bucks..not a lot of money..but it's my FIRST WIN!! *grins*

actually was in a dilemma...i am not a supporter of Liverpool...neither am i a supporter of AC Milan but would prefer the latter to win...however, it was a draw game at full-time...which means that i have won $$$ but this has caused the game to go into extra time and penalty and the win of Liverpool and lost of AC Milan... was wondering if i should rejoice at my winning or mourn at the lost of AC Milan? after much thought...my conclusion is: nay..who cares about who wins the cup?? not as if i owned the cup....i won $$$ and it's my $$$ so i shall rejoice at my $$$!! *laughs*

Thank you Father Lord for blessing my ticket!!

on a different note... Carrie Underwood is the new American Idol.... *mutter mutter* preferred Bo Bice BUT my favorite was Constantine who got voted out a few weeks ago...

Liverpool vs AC Milan

yeah...the BIG match...Liverpool versus AC Milan...think it's the champion league finals...neither am i a Liverpool fan..nor an AC Milan fan...but given a choice..i would prefer AC Milan...because...of him:

MALDINI!!!

but sadly, the match will only be telecast "live" at 2am this morning...which i am sure i am very confident that i wont be able to make it...becauase (1) i cannot wake up, (2) i dont have sports channel on cable, and (3) i cannot stay up till 2am... actually it doesnt really matter that i cant watch it "live" because...like i have said..i am a fan of neither...

actually friends did ask me out to watch the match...but it's at 2am...i really cannot make it..because if i do... (1) i got to work tomorrow, (2) my mum will faint if i tell her i'm going out at 2am and (3) my mum will wake up from her faint and nag at me till i faint if i tell her i'm going out at 2am to watch soccer... sighz...IF the match is at 12am..till 2am..i would go at all costs...actually the fact that i need to work the next day is not that main issue..the main issue is my MUMMY... *laughs* yeah..i am a MUMMY's GIRL!!

anyway...today i bought my 2nd betting ticket...*grins* the first one i bought it in 2002 world cup...Brazil versus England...i am a fan of the Brazilians..but because of the odds, i actually betted on a draw game...and when Brazil won that game...i was not as happy as i would if i had not placed any bets....today, i did the same thing...i would love AC Milan to win (which i think they most probably will!! *laughs*) but because the odds were better for a draw game...i bought a bet on draw again...mmm...would history repeat itself? actually...i personally feel that the game will go into extra time...will share the winning ticket when i took a picture of it...*grins*

2 of my friends were HUGE liverpool fans..they actually bought the liverpool jerseys and were all ready to cheer and celebrate liverpool's victory (which i personally think they are in a state of denial..haha)...and i told them..."please text me the results at 4am...thanks" and to which they replied...." sure..if Liverpool wins"...*laughs* so which means..i will have the following scenarios during full-time:

(1) Liverpool wins - i will get a message from my friends and i will lose 9 bucks and will be grouchy.... probability = 20%

(2) Liverpool and AC Milan draw - i will not get a message from my friends, will win 19 bucks (9 bucks for the ticket, princess mel invested 1 buck..odds is 3.15) and be happy for the rest of the week....probability = 40%

(3) AC Milan win - i will not get a message from my friends, lost 9 bucks but will be happy for the rest of thursday...probability - 40%

mmm...so in conclusion..i have a probability of 80% to be happy on Thursday!! *laughs* May the Lord bless my winning ticket!!

cellulite again

cellulite...unwanted and unsightly...if you dont know what or who i am talking about...that's just too bad...*laughs* you are missing out the finer things in life...haha! actually not that serious ah..but then again...i personally thought that was a very ultimate entry...*grins* anyway, i called one of my friend "cellulite" and bitch about her...*laughs* yes..i am mean..i am a slut..i am a bitch...but i cannot help it...she's one of a kind..anyway...let the bitching begin....*laughs*

went clubbing with her several times... (you must be thinking why do i club with her since i think she's "cellulite"...well basically, she's quite a nice person..i only bitch about her..i never say i hate her ah...) and each time we went...she didnt drink much..only 1 glass...which comes free with the cover-charge...then last week..we went clubbing again...and this time..she met 2 group of friends in the club...and both group of friends bought a bottle of whiskey each...and for the FIRST time....she drank... for the FIRST i actually see her drink... amazing... but i didnt know how much she drinks..because i wasnt with her all the time...but for the whole night and the next 2 days..she kept saying this to me :" i drank a lot leh but i am sober" and to which i replied:" how many do you drink?" and her answer was "lost count"....wah..such a convenient answer right? anyway, after much pestering...she managed to give me some numbers...she said she had 5 glasses of whiskey ( and according to her strong whiskey), 3/4 of barcardi breezer ( to me no kick ) and while playing games, she drank unknowingly...told princess mel and she gave the best answer... "ya...unknowingly drank 1 glass only" *laughs laughs laughs*.... then i happened to bump into this other friend who were drinking with her..and i asked her casually :" hey...did xxx drink a lot last night?" and to which that lady replied:" is it? no lah..cannot remember..but anyway our drinks quite mild..." and to which she gave the best reaction.. " no lah....that girl blur one..i drink a lot and quite strong!!" *laughs laughs laughs* if she's waiting for me to say... "WAH!! you very good drinker leh!!" if that's the case..sorry ah...it's not coming out from my mouth...*grins*

talking about drinking...realized that my friend only drinks when other people buys...so here's my conversation with her:

me: hey you only drink when other people buy horz?

her: ya..haha

me: aiyo..why like that?

her: free mah...besides it's only gentleman for a man to buy a lady drinks...

me: but then a man will only buy if he is interested in you right?

her: no lah...if a man is of certain level, he will buy as a gentleman gesture...anyway, not every week ask him to buy mah...so not that bad what...

if you ask me...i think very cheapo!! i mean...if you want to go out and play...why bother to save money?? if you really want to save money...PLEASE STAY HOME!! of course it's nice that people buys drinks for you...but if no one buy..you got to buy yourself right?? but this friend of mine...she ONLY waits for people to buy her drinks..if not..she will not drink...must be so cheapo ah?? *mutter mutter* maybe many girls/ladies out there share the same sentiments as her...which i have no qualms about that...but WHY? is it really a MUST for the guys to buy drinks for the girls? is that a sign that the guy is gentleman? maybe i am not that pretty to have that priviledge of having people buying me drinks and all and so i have developed the habit of buying my own drinks...*shrugs* can some guys/gals enlighten me on this?

and once again...she's trying to prove her "popularity" and "beauty" to me again...*sighz* she really does have this big ego thingy about herself...actually she's not ugly...but she's not pretty either...maybe average...but not my cup of tea...anyway...here's a classic example:

she: maybe i should ask those guys whom i have never met before to meet in MW...

me: ya..maybe...easier..if good-looking..we hang out together..if ugly..we can siam...hahaha

she: ya..and it saves my trouble of meeting up with them on a one-on-one basis...saves time too..

me: haha...okay...

she: also...meeting in clubs is good for them..they look better...because dark dark....

me: haha...ya..true..and also..you look better too!! haha

she: thanks leh...anyway, i met my ex-boyfriend today..and he said i look better...in the afternoon...

me: okay..good for you!!

*laughs* actually i wanted to reply..."no lah..your ex-boyfriend blinded by the bright afternoon sun!!" but i refrain from saying that because i think she cannot take it....*laughs* on 2nd thoughts..i should have said that right?

*evil grins* i'm really a bitch right?? so fake and pretentious..here i am bitching about her...but i'm still hanging out with her...BUT i didnt say i hate her...just that..she's really one fantastically amazing lady who never fails to make me laugh and snigger!! she has such a bitchable character...*smilez*

cars...

people who knows me know that i love BMW...i even know that BMW shares the same birthday as i...*laughs* but...recently..i have a thing for WRX...dont ask me why.....i am not someone who bothers about the engine..whether it's turbo or not..the suspender..whether is good or not..the whatever you can find in the car...i dont really care....i look at the appearance...the design of the car...i thought WRX was really cool....i like...today i saw THREE WRX's...do you call that fate or what? is it fated that i am going to drive one soon? or is it fated that my next boyfriend will drive a WRX? *laughs* actually WRX's are normally drived by Ah Bengs...and i have told everyone..i dont really mind an Ah Beng ONLY if he drives a WRX...*laughs*

skyline..another of my favorite car...actually didnt really know what's so great about this car..but i guess should be a good and expensive car....anyway...i just like the design of the car...it's so damn cool...there was once i saw this skyline...a golden skyline along the road...was so mesmerized by it..that my eyes were glued to it and my jaws were wide-opened...wonder how it would feel to be sitting in one...but just too bad..havent met anyone who owns a skyline...

celica...saw one white celica while walking down some road...wah..amazingly awesome...the car was so damn cool that me and friend went "oh my god...look at that white celica...i like!!" and for your info, we were not whispering..we were literally "screaming"...*laughs* couldnt help it..it was so so so so so so so pretty...but couldnt catch the driver...but then again..would rather not..because...am afraid that the driver would be some uncles with big beer belly and receding hairlines...*laughs*

recently spotted this honda accord..which looks A LOT like BMWs....and i fell in love with hit immediately...it could be my "substitute" if i cannot afford a BMW...*laughs* but seriuosly, this honda accord is also quite a sleek model....

other cute cars include the following: Supra and S2000..very very rare...wonder why is that so....

mmm...realize some similiarities....i love cars with BIG WHEELS...i just think it's very cool for a car to have big wheels...dont you think so....and of course..to end this entry..is a picture of my dream car....

hallelujah!!

finally went to church today....i have missed church for the past 3 weeks or so..because of some "unreasonable" reason...unreasonable because i think those should not be the reason why i didnt go church...but anyway, have finally made it this week...Praise the Lord!

today's teaching was on "Right Believing"... as far as i can remember what Pastor Prince had said... right believing produces right results...and he showed us scriptures on the fact that we are no longer in debt and we are free and God will NEVER rebuke us anymore because Jesus has died for us on the cross... and he has borne all sins for us and we no longer in sin...we are FREE!!

it was truly amazing because...for the past few weeks, i keep having the thoughts/feelings..whatever you call it that God is angry with me...because i have not been a good child..not going church, not reading the bible, not doing what i am supposed to do and doing what i am not supposed to do....i have been feeling guilty...and suddenly i have a very strong urge to go church...to immerse myself in the presence of God again...i feel the need to be with God...i feel the need to hear him, to feel him...

anyway, this need has been fulfilled but the hunger for Him is still there...**Hallelujah** mmm...think i need to get more involved..need to serve....need to have fellowship...need to know Him better...

why?

why am i a woman?? why must a woman have menses every month? why?? why?? why?? although i have mentioned before that it's amazing that we women bleed every month but we never die...*laughs* but why must we bleed??a colleague replied :" because we have to give birth"...then why must we give birth? because eve has sinned...it all started with ADAM & EVE... okay what to do....

actually i took leave this Friday to attend a wakeboarding course...was so so so so so so so excited about this whole course thingy...when my stupid menses suddenly occurred... (oops..now everyone knows i am having my menses...but then again...it's alright....*laughs*) so i have to cancel the class..am so so so so so so so so pissed!! why?? why?? why?? it wasnt meant to be this way..last month...it started on the 24th, which is 1 week late, and this month..it started on the 19th, which is 1 week early...what the hell is wrong with my body and brain? why are they doing this to me??

mmm...is it a sign to tell me that wakeboarding is not my cup of tea? or it's dangerous to go out into sea? or it will rain tomorrow since it has been raining for the past few days? sighz...seriously...i dont know as my body doesnt talk to me at all....just imagine...one day your hand says.."do you mind using the left hand more often as i need to rest?" *laughs*

was praying hard that it would be a bright and sunny day so that i could get a good tan...given this situation..am praying hard that it would be a gloomy and rainy day and my friends would reschedule the lesson and i could join them again!! yeah!! *evil grin*

please call me Queen Hannah-Dala..

*laughs* yes...please call me that...for the next 2 weeks...i am Queen Hannah-Dala..looking for my walker...can be landwalker, skywalker or seawalker...mmm...do i sound like i am looking for army boys? *laughs* whatever..it's alright...but basically, now i am into THE FORCE...not police force, not airforce, not grativiational force, not frictional force..but THE FORCE... am losing it again...

i just watched that show today..and i've gotten free tickets to it!! *cheers* and i love the show...i am not a big starwars fan..seriously speaking...i watched episode I on tv because i was going to watch episode II in theatres...which makes me wanna watch episode III and now i'm going to rent tapes, vcds, dvds for episode IV, V & VI...*laughs* must complete the hexalogy...anyway my dark lover just said can go his house to watch... no need to rent...*yeah* got a feeling i might fall asleep watching the IV to VI episodes or laugh till my sides ache...

am not going to spoil the thrill and excitement of those who have not caught that show...am not going to give a synopsis of that show...actually come to think of it..i think those the story is quite simple and obvious...*laughs* but i must say...the guys in that show..totally ROCK!!!

ewan mcgregor was totally awesome... he's so so so so so so so cute in that show....a true Jedi Master... Master Yoda is the one...love him when he started fighting..his light-sabre is short and green..matched him perfectly...and the way he speaks...so profound and cute.... remembered one line from him "You must train yourself to let go of things you hold on dearly" cool right?? then we have the charming hayden..although there were reviews on him not doing the role well..i dont really care..his eyes are so deep & piercing that i think i will melt if i were to meet him in person...and i like his lips..thin and sexy..the evil and snobbish look he has...amazing!!!

mmm..actually maybe Queen Amidala should be replaced by Queen Hannah-Dala..*laughs* anyway...she looked different in this show....but there's this scene..which i thought was pretty funny...she was giving birth to 2 kids...and when the first child was born..obiwan brought the child to her and she said..."Luke" very fast horz...one look and she named the child...then the second child was born...obiwan brought the child to her and she said "Leia" wah..very fast leh..and at the back of my mind i was thinking: if i were to give birth..and after giving birth...my husband or doctor brought the child to me and i am supposed to name my child immediately...my child would be called the following names: (1) huh, (2) eee, (3) eh and (4) ..... because i seriously believe it would be my first reactions if i were to see my child...

and funnily, the only Jedis that could fight really well were Master Yoda, Master Obiwan and Anakin Skywalker..the rest..one stroke and they died...thought they are also Masters since they were in the council....maybe not enough film already..*laughs* but i like the way they fight...at times...it seemed so aggressive...at times..it seemed like they are dancing...and the lightsabres are of such nice colors....the bad guys are always carrying the RED ... the normal Jedis BLUE and my favorite is the GREEN...was asking my friend... "Do you think i should open a Jedi School in Singapore?" *laughs*

MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU ...

why do i need to work?

i am so bloody tired...so many things to do...so little time to do...*ARGH!!!!* but must restrain from pulling my hair because i am balding.... *sobs sobs* why does all the bad things happen to me?? *sighz* oh almighty GOD...help me...i am "dying"...dying from fatigue..dying from the pile of work...dying from the feeling of sianess...dying from the lost of direction... i need YOU to guide me...to be there for me...*ARGH!!!* mmm....need to release the stress inside me...need to find some comfort...need some tender loving care...

recently, the morale was really low for me...everyday seemed to be really busy and sighing away..actually it's not just me...princess mel too....busy and sighing away...*laughs* but we really cannot help it...every morning..we wake up and we really really dread going to work...but we need the money...sighz...when can we hold our wedding?? ie princess mel & josh and me and tom... *laughs* dreaming again..but no harm right..it's a way to escape from reality as well...

well..it's true that work is never-ending...so just do whatever you can..BUT everyday...i am given weird job tasks from all over the world...i really wonder... DO I LOOK THAT FUCKING FREE THAT YOU HAVE TO GIVE ME EXTRA WORK TO DO??? WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOUR FUCKING EYES THAT YOU CANNOT SEE THAT I AM BURYING IN HEAPS OF WORK OR RATHER SHIT??

if one can spend the time looking through some documents..why cant that person just update that particular document? why must he/she send the files that i have sent over and come back to tell me what to update? is it easier to tell me to do?is it that fucking difficult to type those few things into that damn word document?so for me to read through the changes, update into the word document and send it back to you is much easier? *mutter mutter*

if one need some particular info for one's own use...is it logical to ask me to do the gathering and consolidation of info for you simply because i'm in the support function? but that doesnt mean i should support every fucking person or shit that was thrown onto my table... do i really look that free? with my messy hair, dark eye rings, loud sighing and blur look....does that indicate that i am so damn fucking free that extra shit has to be given to me??

and some people can be so irritatingly mean and fake... when i'm liasing with them..they are alright..saying "no problem...can...thanks for your help ah"...and the next moment...escalate to dont know who and my boss will come running to me and ask... "what happen? why didnt you help them?" WHAT THE FUCK?? i thought everything was under control and fine....stupid stupid stupid...

is this what one call "office politics"? *shrugs* i guess i am just sianz of my work....not getting enough $$$ for the shit i am doing...now with the stupid work, my sleeping hours are lessened, my complexion is getting worse, am getting fatter, getting uglier, my english is beginning to suck although it was never good, getting more vulgar...

i know what i need now....SLEEP, LOVE, $$$$ and GOD!!! like very bad horz...only find Papa God when i need Him...but then horz...He loves me mah...so heh heh heh..given that priviledge..no need to earn for it...it's a gift from Him... Thank you!!!

I'm mad....why do i need to work???

swimming coach

always have the habit of going for a swim after my piano lesson every saturday at my piano teacher's condo...nice pool, private, nice sun, nice bathroom...*grins* saturday afternoons are normally quiet and peaceful..not much people at the pool..no one will see me in my bikini and all my fats... (ya i can dont wear bikini but then if i wear swimming costume, my tan lines will be very ugly...so how?) *grins*

recently, i realized a pattern...from 1 plus to 2....the pool is quiet..because those who have come earlier have left and swimming lessons for the kids have also ended...but the next swimming lessons will start at 2pm...and i realize...there are 2 swimming coaches at the pool... Coach #1 is this man...skinny but the arms very nice...flap flap hair...gold chain around the neck..talks like a bird...looks like ah beng *laughs* and Coach #2 is this man...quite young...quite short...nice arms...nice tattoo.. okay it seemed from the way i described the 2 coaches that i prefer the coach #2 right? *laughs* he's more handsome!!

anyway, a few weeks back, while i was trying to make the stupid jacuzzi work...coach #2 walked past and told me that it's always spoilt...and that he always had trouble with it and to which i replied..."ya..stupid...so how?" did you complain to the maintenence office?" then he mumbled something and went off...then the week after that...i saw him again..and he told me.. "you know that jaccuzzi which you were trying hard to make it work...got to push the 2 buttons together...i saw some kids did it after you left" and to which i go.. "really ah..okay..i shall try next time..thanks!!" mmm..stupid conversation right???

then this week...i was at the swimming pool at my usual time..and i saw coach #2 again... (actually i saw coach #1 every week..because he's always sleeping at one of the chairs while waiting for his students at 2pm..and that's about it) this week..he actually jumped into the pool and swam...this is the FIRST time i see him swim...amazing..*laughs* anyway, i wasnt swimming...i was just standing at the side...staring into blank space...*laughs* then when he reached my end he said "hello!" and i went "hello" then he swam back to his side... (in my mind i was like...is he going to swim to my side again and talk to me...excited excited) and then he swam back to my side again and started to chat with me... (excited excited)

basically, we talked about his job as a swimming coach and how he teaches autistic children to swim... (impressive and noble horz?) then he told me which block he's living in...(am i supposed to tell him which block i living in as well? but i already told him i dont live here..maybe he thought i was telling him that i dont live at the pool...*laughs*) about him representing tan tock seng hospital in some inter-hospital swimming competition when he was young... (apparently his dad is a doctor!!) ... basically that's about it...and we didnt exchange our names....should have asked him.. wasted...*mutter mutter*

anyway, hope to see him soon and find out more about him!! *laughs* and no..i am NOT desperate!!

Friday 13th...

today is Friday 13th...where i live...this is not really a big hoo-ha..no one really take note of it...and it's not exactly an unlucky day...nor an unlucky number...guess we Asians believe more in the number "4" which sounds like "death" in cantonese....anyway...am not going to say how unlucky today was...it sounded too much like some primary or secondary school composition titled "What an Unlucky Day"....*laughs*

mmm...let's see....think am going to list down 13 urges which i have for today....

(1) i want to go sun-tanning @ the beach....sentosa!! havent been to the beach for a lllllloooooonnnnnnggggg time....*sighz*

(2) i want to learn dancing!! have seen some artistes on variety shows dancing competitive and ballroom dancing...soooooooooooooo nice....i like...and my mum is supportive of it because she said can improve my posture and help me to lose weight...*laughs*

(3) i want to eat "Ya Kun" eggs and toast!! heh heh...actually already eaten...*laughs* now am feeling satisfied..wonder what's my next craving...

(4) i want to eat Macdonald's "Big Breakfast"!! havent eaten that for a llllllooooooonnnnnnggggggg time...couldnt wake up on time to go to Macdonald to eat one of my favorite breakfast...sighz...

(5) i want to go back to school!! mmm....saw a few students today...they seemed so carefree..and i mised wearing uniform, socks and shoes...i want to carry haversacks...i want to go for P.E. lessons..i want to go for science labs lesson..i want to be a student again...

(6) i want to change my hairstyle!! have been having long hair since dont know when..am getting sick of my hair...want to cut it..but many people are going against this idea...*laughs* guess i must have look damn ugly in short hair..but i am really sick of my hair..maybe i should color it..but my hair is not black..and always seemed to be colored...i dont want to perm...as it will make me look old...re-bonding is not that suitable for me...*sighz*

(7) i want to go backpacking!! a friend of mine will be setting off today for a 1 month backpacking trip in Europe..ARGH!! i'm so so jealous...i want to go with him!!! anyway...have agreed with mel that we would go backpacking next year...cant remember if we decide on USA or Europe...but we would be going in April...and given our laziness and procastination traits...i told her..we have to start our research, planning and saving $$$ now!! *laughs*

(8) i want to go shopping!! this doesnt seemed new ah...i seemed to have this urge every single day...but i have the urge to buy clothes...i want to buy gold belt, red belt, red shoes, red bags, white bag, blue bag, brown clothes, red clothes, etc... *grins*

(9) i want to sleep!! for the past 2 weeks...it just doesnt seem right...nothing exactly bad went wrong..but i just feel so tired and sleepy every single day....i need to sleep to replenish my energy...*laughs*

(10) i want to learn a new language!! mmm...but am not sure which shall i learn... french? german? spanish? japanese? koren? actually have always wanted to learn spanish..but then...lazy ah...procastinate procastinate and all...ha ha ha!!

(11) i want to go on adventure trip!! not that i am a very adventurous person...but i would like to go moutain trekking and all...would be interesting...but then..i would feel very dirty...but seriously, i think it would be fun..but then..i dont know where to go, who to go with and when to go...*sighz*

(12) i want to be a pathologist!! this is my childhood ambition...am always very impressed with pathologist..but am not fated with science...but if given a chance, i would love to be one...if only i can be one...or if i can find one to be my boyfriend..that would be good enough... *giggles*

(13) i want to kiss an ang-moh!! *laughs*

networks...

was chatting with a friend on kissess, hanky-panky, and all....*laughs* and this chat was over dinner i think...or waiting for cab to go home...guess we were either running out of topics to talk or we are simply getting horny...must the be kenny rogers chicken...*laughs*

anyway, we were sharing our kissing experiences...not many lah..1 hand can finish counting... but the guys that we kissed....are NOT our boyfriends!! *laughs* and couldnt remember how the conversation developed and then dont know why...we went on to ask each other if there were more than kissing...*smilez* and this is how i define the terms:

(a) Auto-Roam: this is where the guy's hands are all over you...auto-roaming...but of course..there are places where the network is not that good..and hence, no connection...

(b) Pay-As-You-Roam:because you only pay as your roam, the network may not be ask good in most places..and because it's a limited services, network is only available in certain areas...the guy's hands are only allowed in common areas...

(c) CD-MA: if i'm not wrong...CD-MA is no longer available..and the network really sucks...because of that..network is normally not available at all...and so...the guy's hands are not allowed at any places...

(d) 3G Technology: not sure if this is the latest network..but i guess pretty much it is....this is to signify freedom...surf and roam wherever you are..whenever you want...however long you decide!! as long as you are happy...go ahead and do it....get the connection established....*laughs*

thought i was pretty intelligent to come up with such terms to describe the intimacy between a guy and a girl...arent' i? *winks*

toms...

i like toms....

Tom #1 is like a "grandfather"...he's one of the bosses in office but not the biggest...in fact he's only going to be with us for a 1 year...not sure how old he is...but he should be old....no more black hair...balding...needs reading glasses....and heard he has grandchildren already...so he's old..that's for sure...anyway, he has a calming effect...the way he speaks, the way he moves, the way he gives instructions..you just feel so at peace with him..i once commented that he speaks like a news broadcaster and would like to retract that statement..he speaks like a grandfather...so calm and soothing.....can fall asleep....*laughs* i not saying he's boring ah...just that he has the lullaby effect on me...even now..i feel like sleeping....*yawnz*

Tom #2 has left the office...he's so so so so so so so so so charming..am always telling people..he's the number 1 guy in our office...just too bad he's married with kids...*sighz* always like to hear him speak...so proper, so systematic, like news broadcaster...*laughs* mmm...everyone seemed to speak like a newsbroadcaster to me... he has good dress sense...always looking smart...has a cute moustache....nice hair..not too blonde..not too brunette..just the right color....he always knew what he's doing...he gives me the dont-mess-with-me feeling but yet he's not arrogant...miss his voice, his laughter, his ring-tone and his nice shirts and ties.... if only he's my father..i would have live in lapse of luxury!! *laughs*

Tom #3 is someone from my JC...*grins* my classmate...we were in the same class...*oops* just said we were classmates...and we dropped physics in our 2nd year...so we had the same timetable.... he's not exactly cute...but i thought he's suave...doesnt have a nice face...but he's tall and i like his style...although not much style...*laughs* i can remember he loves to sing..always singing some david tao song or william soo...not too bad...dont know why and when, but people started putting us together..maybe because we had the same timetable and so we hung out very often...*laughs* but i knew he likes this other girl from the other class...but wasnt jealous..as i guessed i just thought he's not a bad guy...yeah yeah..maybe i was in a state of denial..but i doubt so...*laughs* saw him again this year....sometime back when we had our jc class gathering..still as suave...*grins*

Tom #4 is my beloved one from hollywood...*laughs* yeah, he's short...he's rumored to be gay and impotent..but i dont care...he's always so sexy to me...when i look at him..i'll start to fantasize...start to get horny and all...*laughs* wah...very disgusting...have always told others he's my boyfriend and all his other relationships are facades...i'm THE ONE!! *laughs* mmm..always have the urge to try sending a mail to tomcruise@hollywood.com!! *laughs*

The OC

got this picture from my dark lover...it's AMAZING!! love it so much i have to post it here...background is perfect, the positions are perfect, the bodies are awesome, the faces are marvellous...Marrissa, Ryan (my fav), Seth and Summer...they never failed to mesmerize me especially Ryan....*drools*

if you look like Ryan Atwood aka Benjamin Mckenzie, please drop me a line!! *laughs* i'll be waiting for you...*grins*

really really love this show...(1) there's a very nice and big BMW in the show driven by Sandy Cohen...*laughs* (2) the houses are awesome, (3) beautiful people...i think they should cast a role for me as i think i am beautiful too...(alright, stop puking..am only joking), and (4) interesting story...

ever since the OC was telecast on channel 5, my thursdays are no longer free....*laughs*

my future...

had a review or rather discussion with my boss today...it's a routine in my company...i guess it's a routine in almost every company..with the new HR theories now, i guess every company is trying to retain talent, motivate employees, getting feedback from employees and all that jest...but seriously, i really wonder...does it really help? *shrugs* i mean...seriously, to me...theoreotically a lot of things can happen..but realistically is it feasible? but then again..i guess it should be if not...why would all the smart people spend time researching, gathering people and publishing all those theories...but i guess it's not working in my office...must be the HR person not doing her job...*laughs* mmm...better not talk so much about my office..in case i got sued...but then again..given the amount of bitching i do everyday...getting sue for slandering is not a surprise...*grins*

anyway, as i was saying..had a discussion with my boss to talk about my business and personal goals for the year...actually it's all crap because i just cut and paste her business goals and modify a bit to make it suitable for me...*laughs* but apparently, she's quite happy with it..and didnt make much comments...but she asked me something : What do you want to do in future? What are your plans? very difficult to answer..at that point of time..i was like.. "Shit! what am i going to say? tai tai?" *giggles* anyway....she then starting introducing the different areas that i can go into in our company... Is she trying to get me out of her team? Does she think i am useless? haha...dont think so right? she still praise me leh...*beaming proudly* she said i have POTENTIAL!! *laughs*

anyway, her questions suddenly set me thinking...what do i want to do in the future...i know i cannot do what i'm doing forever..but then seriously speaking..i dont know what i want to do...my uncle has been nagging me and "scolding" me that i am too lazy....and spending too much time sleeping... this colleague of mine offered me some sound advice...asking me to get some professional certificates and to change my life since i am not a typical singaporean girl...*smilez* i think it's about time i think about my future... seriously thinking about what i want to do in my life...what i want to achieve and where i want to be in 5 years time...

anyway, was sitting in front of the tv when the news was broadcasting about the death of our ex-president Dr Wee..wah a lot of people really like him ah..to me..he's my favorite president although i had no contact with him..not very sure of his background and all but just find that he's very fatherly....like Uncle Goh..*laughs* anyway...his funeral very grand...and everyone was crying...makes me think about my funeral..i also want it to be grand ... *grins* but i dont think i can be the president or anyone that great to Singapore...*laughs* but i'm happy enough to have a glass coffin...and eminem's music and all....oh by the way, i actually almost cried when i saw the funeral...

actually if you ask me about my future...all i can say now is I WANT TO BE A FLOWER GIRL FOR ALL MY FRIENDS' WEDDING!! *laughs* and of course... I WANT A BMW!!

train of thoughts...

mmm...it's already 2:21am...and i am still not sleeping on a thursday morning...and nope..i am not on annual leave...guess what..i am actually working...*SIGHZ* and as i worked...different thoughts just came into mind...they are just some random thoughts...

mmm....was watching some hong kong serial drama and in that show, the girlfriend got upset when she found out that her boyfriend had a one-night stand...and the guy explained that he was upset to see her behaving intimately with another guy and drank too much which caused him to have that one-night stand...actually i dont really understand why the girl got so angry..i mean the guy already explained that he had too much that's why he did that...and besides when he did that, they were not together...actually if you asked me..i'm also not sure how i would respond to such circumstances...anyway...i have always wanted to try one-night stands...BUT..i think i dont have that guts..*laughs* actually always wanted to try with someone i know..a friend..but then again..never mind..just some silly thoughts...

was having lunch with 2 colleagues that day..and we started talking about cars..and as usual..i would declare my love for BMWs...*grins* this is part of our conversation:

me: wah...BMWs very nice..i like...

her: ya..i also think BMWs very nice..but i hate mercs....very uncle...

me: huh? no lah.SLK is nice...sleek and nice...CLK also nice...ha ha ha

her: but i think BMWs nicer...anyway..have told my boyfriend..if he were to change car change to a BMW..and recently he's thinking of changing car...

me: huh? eh...the difference between a chevy and a BMWer is not little leh... ( in other words i mean: your boyfriend got $$ to buy BMW? *laughs*)

her: eh..actually we bought the chevy because that time was in a rush to get a car...initially wanted to get the other chevy which singapore doesnt import..and thus we settle for this chevy...

me in my mind: ya right...if really got $$ to buy BMW..should have just bought the BMW in the first place..why bother with a chevy???

am i really mean? ha ha ha...but then again...arent i right??? *grins*

saw my friend's blog and she wrote an entry on "Friendster"...which reminds me..i just found my primary school friend!!! *yeah* and the exciting part is....he's a doctor who specializes in neurology! this is an exciting piece of news for me as i have never imaged having a doctor as friend....*cool* and he drives..*laughs* and if i didnt remember wrongly...we were quite alright friends in primary school...*laughs* POTENTIAL TARGET!! ha ha ha ...no lah...not that desperate yet..anyway..he's attached BUT having problems!! *laughs* but seriously, most of my guy friends are engineers...almost everyone guy i know is engineer....finally a doctor....*smilez*

been visiting this club every week for the past one month plus...was wondering..why am i doing that? mmm....never frequent a club so often before...a friend did ask:" you every week go..not sianz ah?" actually not really...in fact if i dont go..i felt lost...*laughs* mmm...but then again...in Singapore, there's nothing much to do also...*sighz* mmm...something is wrong...terribly wrong..any guidance from anyone??? i'm open...

was telling my mum that my friend's boyfriend drives a BMW...and she goes... "why you look at the car and not the person? so what if he drives a BMW? you must see if he's a nice person..what kind of job is he holding and all..driving a BMW doesnt mean much ya know..." mmm...was i that materialistic??? *laughs*

Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love - Albert Einstein

what is love?? how does it feel to be in love?? do you believe in love at first sight?? mmm...why am i talking about love? i'm not looking for love...neither am i in love...nor out of love...but this 4-letter word has mend and broken many hearts...not mine at least...because I HAVE NEVER BEEN IN LOVE!!! sad right? so old already...still no experience in love....*sighz*

actually i also dont know what am i supposed to write about here...am attaching some documents into this stupid database..and it's taking so f**king long that i decided to blog..but then i got nothing to say...*laughs* was just surfing around and found the line by Uncle Albert and decided to expand on this...but am stuck already...*laughs* guess i am really not a "love" person...

if you were to ask me..."what is love?" my reply would be " i dont know"...or maybe i would answer "GOD is love" *laughs* actually seriously i dont know what is love...love is something emotional...something which does not have a physical shape and does not occupy space..but yet..it is part of one's life...love can control your mind...love can make you sane or insane...love can change you from better to worse or from worse to better...love can give you power and take away your strength...love is a very splendid thing...

i dont believe in "love at first sight"..rather i believe in "lust at first sight"...*laughs* oh puh-leese..dont give me all the rubbish about "what counts is the inside not the outside", "surface beauty is non-lasting", blah blah blah...ya..i totally agree that the character plays an important part..but hey..before one gets to the character..what attracts one to another.... THE FACE & THE BODY!!! now tell me..is that LOVE or LUST? whoever chose the former is in a state of denial!! *laughs*

i always question...how would one know if he/she is in love? or love someone? a friend ( i've forgotten who) once told me... "if you think about him/her all the time..and whenever you think about him/her..you smiled...and if you can imagine your future with him/her always..you're in love with him/her"...is that true?? if that's true..i guess i have never fallen in love...i have never thought of anyone whom i can imagine or picture as a boyfriend let alone spending the rest of my life with him... guess it's rather hard for me to fall in love....but seriously, i want to try falling in love..but yet...i am not keen in falling in love...guess i'm simply afraid...afraid of the power of love...

aiyo...the attaching of documents in this stupid database is so f**king slow...still attaching....stupid...

rich dad poor dad

am sure many of you have read this book...this is another "get-rich" books which is quite popular and highly-read...and so i bought the book and read it...before anyone goes "oh my god!! it's such an old book now then you read a bit the duhz right??" i want to say... "sorry ah..i finished this book like a few years ago horz..." *laughs* i think i very boliaoz here...*laughs* anyway...i'm not going to give a belated review ah... ooh...actually my friend brought me to this place to play the cashflow game on thursday... if you have read the book, you would know what is the cashflow game...if you didnt read the book..i'm sorry...please go read it..thanks! *laughs*

basically, it's an education center or rather an entrepreneurial center....dont know what does the center does...but basically, when i arrive at that place, it's like there are just rooms and rooms and from each room, one can hear cheering and happening music...as if like some JC orientation camp...it was weird if you asked me...anyway, the game is held in one of the rooms...

basically, the agenda goes like this:

(1)Introduction which was done by this guy who is not handsome and speak "not-nice" english..stupid...should have gotten a cute and charming guy to do the intro...then i wont feel sleepy...

(2) Game - i learnt that no doubt opportunities are always there...they have to be there at the right time...and before any investment can be done to earn passive income..the capital has to be there...so the book was not as unrealistic as i thought it was when i read it....

(3) Table-sharing between the different players about how they feel about the game and what they have learnt.. i didnt get to say anything..which is GOOD... as i dont know what to say...somehow i feel they are trying to be like motivated individuals..cheering and clapping at every single thing..stupid...

(4) Video clips of the author, Robert blah blah and this taiwanese guy...which i felt it was a total waste of time...dont understand why they have to play this clip...it's so long-winded and stupid..no meaning...stupid stupid stupid...caused me to miss the first 15 minutes of my favorite O.C!!! stupid stupid stupid...

to sum it all up...NOT TOO BAD!!!!