guess what was the most exciting thing that happened to me during this chinese new year? mmm..i think none would have given me the correct answer..because it's something which will not happen to most people...nope, i did not make a killing from gambling...i didnt not win 4D or toto..although i dont really mind if i did...i didnt get myself hitched...hahaha...I WENT DRAGONFLY WITH MY MUM, AUNTIE and 2 UNCLES!! *laughs* isnt that very very interesting??? it was a very last minute and spontaneous idea...we were just driving back home from someone's house..and then suddenly, my uncle asked.." so are we going home now? " then my mum said.." if not go home...go where? chiong? haha " then my uncle said.." do you want? i dont mind.. " then my auntie went.." huh? " then suddenly, we're on our way to Dragonfly... in a brand new BMW 5 series...was telling my uncle since we're driving such a nice car, we should use the valet and arrive in style..but i guess it's quite crappy as my uncle ignored my suggestion...haha!
anyway, we arrived there and it was not really packed but quite packed...as it was only my 2nd time there...not very sure how to navigate as well...finally, we found a table right at the back..not too bad..ordered our drinks..and then basically, we just stood there and watch the obiang and obit stage performance by this unknown girl, guy-who-look-like-he-was-once-in-singapore-idol-and-named-ben and sylvester sim...hahaha! i dont know why..but somehow, i like seeing sly on stage..although he's very beng, skinny and whatever...the moment he smiled..i sort of melt a little...hahaha! they were singing chinese songs..and i dont really know what songs they were belting out but i reckon they are famous songs as most of the other patrons are singing along with them... the only uninteresting part is...my relatives refused to order drinks...ARGH! i thought i could get free drinks..but they said one is enough...*mutter mutter* and my uncle must be damn bored to notice this other uncle, who was sort of walking around the club trying to pick up young girls..and what makes it interesting is that my uncle actually recognized him as the security guard of some building...hahahaha
and guess what? my mum got picked up by some young punks from the next table..hahahahaha! basically, there was a group of ugly looking guys drinking and making a lot of noise at the next table...suddenly one of them started talking to my mum and offering her a glass of thick chivas green tea...and they were pretty shocked to learn that we are related and not colleagues...and then suddenly, i was introducing myself to some of them and i dont even remember any names...actually they wanted to offer my mum another glass because after my mum finished the glas of thick chivas green tea..they went.." wow, this lady can drink..." hahahahahaha and yes, my mum can really drink...oh, but my mum declined the 2nd glass as we're about to head home... and on the way home, my mum kept talking about them..and kept saying.." they're not my cup of tea..i could be their mother...they spent their 1 month's salary on the 4 bottles of Chivas " hahaha! actually i did ask and those guys are mostly regulars... seriously, i think it's pretty cool to be pick up by guys when you're old and not hot at all...hahahahahahahahahaha! anyway, after last night, my mum was saying.." i need to do this on a weekly basis " hahahahahahaha! welcome to the clubbing scene mummy!
on another note....i totally hate my mum...she is such a pain in my arse...EVERY FUCKING TIME i mentioned that i wanna do something that i really want and like..she will just be the wettest blanket you can ever find...previously, i wanna learn diving..she said i only want to do it because i'm following some trend..what fucking trend was she talking about??? if she said that it's dangerous or whatever, okay i could understand but she said i was being coerced by my friends...rubbish!!! but anyhow, i went ahead despite her objections..i wanna live the life i want...not the life full of regrets..hahaha! planning to go again i think...i'm going to Bali next week...and i've already told her 2 months ago in late Dec that i'm going to Bali with my colleague...and i'm going alone and meeting her over there...and have also told her last week that i'm going on 28 feb to 4 mar...and also told her that i'm sort of riding on my colleague's korean package...and guess what?
just now, she said this to me: " so when are you going Bali? didnt you read the newspaper or hear the news that there will be terrorist attacks in Indonesia? Indonesia is so chaotic..why cant you go Korea to meet your colleague? and why didnt you discuss with me on the packages and everything else? why do you always tell me stuffs at the last minute? why didnt you think of the consequences before acting? you're flying there alone..arent you afraid? if Japanese tourist can get killed in Singapore, what if you're being murdered in Indonesia? also, you cannot speak bahasa and they dont speak english, there will be language barrier, so what's so fun? and when things happen, then you start to push the responsibility around..." WHAT THE FUCK IS SHE RATTLING ON ABOUT? does she even know what she's talking?? seriously, i'm simply ignoring her..not even bothering to reply her...she can say all the rubbish she wants..but it's my life and i wanna live the life i wanna live..like what my uncle has said.. " life is short..enjoy while you can..why bother to make life diffcult over small issues? "
seriously, why is my mum such a pain? i think i've been a good girl ....for all my life..i have never once rebutted her or even argued with her... neither have i slammed my door or walked away from her nonsensical nagging...unlike my brother, but yet she can tolerate my brother's rude behavior but she has to give me such shit? seriously, when she said that i might die in Bali..in my heart i was like..i dont really mind and before i die, i would make sure that i write a letter and get them to send back to her..and in my letter i will say that i have no regrets dying overseas as i've done what i wanna do and not listen to her nonsense and live a life of regrets...and this would make her live her rest of her life in deep regrets...hahahaha..boy, arent i mean? but seriously, if she really pisses me off badly, i would consider packing up and going... to where? no idea but at least away from the pain...
okay, i know my mum is menopausing and she's concerned about my safety..but hello, i'm just going to Bali and not Baghdad... and does she have to kick up such a big fuss and make all those untrue statements? seriously, as i and her get older, i'm beginning to distance myself away from her..not that i want to but she forces me to with all her nonsense... even my dad is giving up hope... sometimes i dont understand at all..if she thinks that she doesnt have enough to spend, go out and find some part-time job...dont give me the stupid excuse that she needs to monitor my youngest brother who is already sec 3 and she doesnt even know what he's studying about... and if she chooses to be a housewife, dont complain that no one is helping out with the chores... it's not as if we're all housewives and she's the only housewife working... like now, she's nagging my dad for snacking non-stop..WHAT IS HER FUCKING PROBLEM???!!!!! seriously, she's making me hate her..not that i wanna hate her...but she's really forcing me to hate her.... sometimes, when i couldnt find some things in the kitchen, she would go... " why are you all so stupid? dont even know where the basic stuffs are kept in the kitchen? if i die, you all will be helpless " seriously, most of the time, i'm saying this to myself : go ahead and die, i dont fucking care and i wont be helpless... hahahaha!
okay people..after reading this..dont bother to tell me to cool down and relax and that my mum is only menopausing and this is just a phrase.... i know some of you may have gone through worse shit but this is just me complaining about my mother...sometimes, i wonder, why cant she be as cool as my grandmother aka her mother? hahahahahahahaha...i was sooo pissed with her that i wish i would die in my sleep tonight...hahaha so if there arent any more posts after this....i've already died..hahaha!
ONE DAY LATER.....
after posting this entry..i think i may be a little too harsh...also after listening to dydy's story..i feel so ashamed of myself..hahahaha! and after talking to sharon, who also faced the same problem as me...maybe i'm not that alone in this world...hahahahaha but still i think my mum still pissed me off with all her nonsense...but well, she's my mother...so i guess i have to live with it...right? :P
