am i really that FAT??? =(

recently..i feel fat..in fact..i am fat..no need to feel... I AM FAT!!!! but i dont want to be fat....anyway..come to think of it... WHO WANTS TO BE FAT??? ha ha ha...silly me!! never exercise...sleep and sleep and sleep...eat and eat and eat....eat and sleep....sleep and eat...how not to be FAT ????? if i can remember correctly..i have been saying " i want to lose weight" ever since i know how to talk.... *laughs* but till now...24 years have passed...and i am still FAT and in fact... VERY FAT!!! *argh* 2 persons have said that i am fat for the past few days...very sad....not angry..but sad....sighz...am i really that FAT????

there's this new colleague in my office....was around for a few days only...bumped into me at the toilet last thursday....she mumbled something to me...and i couldnt hear....why? BECAUSE SHE'S MUMBLING!!! anyway..that's besides the point... then she continued to mumbled..and i just go.. " ooh...ah...ya....mmm..." then suddenly she asked... " ARE YOU EXPECTING??" and i go... "HUH? no lah...." duhz....am i so fat to the extent that i have a bulging tummy and do i look that old???? wah...very very very very very very very sad.....*cries*

then....went out with some friends..we were just chatting about some rubbish...then suddenly she commented that there's this eligible bachelor in her office..she wanted to introduce to me....and another friend rebutted by saying... "wah..if so eligible, how come dont keep it for yourself?" and this friend of mine said... "mmm...he's very big-sized leh..when i stand beside him..i feel very small...i think he's suitable for you, hannah...he's very big" wah..i was crying in my heart ah...am i really THAT BIG ??? comparative with this friend...i am only taller...as confirmed by princess mel...not that much bigger...*cries*

today...the sky is crying for me too...it's been gloomy and rainy since morning....i think God also thinks i'm special and unique... PRAISE THE LORD!! HALLELUJAH!!!