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i think i have found my new year resolution...I WANT TO LEARN DIVING... hahahaha...was talking to my neighbor at work..and apparently he's quite active..he dive and rock-climbs...very adventurous..and was talking to him about diving..and he just told me about this cheap course..which cost only SGD222 for a basic course which includes everything...HOW CAN I GIVE IT A MISS?? *grins* but i think my mum will flip if i tell her i want to learn diving..hahahaha...she already flipped when i said i went windsurfing and wakeboarding...but then again, i think she will get use to it...*laughs*

met a friend for lunch today...was really glad that she's enjoying herself very much in her new company with her new colleagues...kinda envious because her company actaully employed 18 of them for this round and they were like a class..always hanging out together and all....going gym, eating, drinking, clubbing etc... anyway, happy for her that's she's happy....and she asked me to go clubbing with her...and i told her this:" but i'm currently in my clubbing rehab and so cannot club till march 2006..also i want to go church...then after church i go teach piano and then go visit granny and then go home " and her reaction was :" hannah, you okay? something is wrong with you!!!! " *laughs* what's wrong with going church and visiting granny? what's wrong with not going clubbing? i guess i always give people the impression that i am a party animal when in fact...I AM NOT!!! now then they know...*winks*

was just wondering....why do some people get all the love and attention they want or they dont want but for me..it seemed kinda hard for me to simply fall in love...i can oogle at guys...i can admire them from afar..i can whatever whatever...but i can NEVER fall in love...frankly speaking...i HAVE NEVER FALLEN IN LOVE...is this a bad thing? am i abnormal? some of my friends simply get attached and detached with a snap of their fingers...some will get girls/guys falling head over heels with them when they didnt even have to lift a finger...some are simply so in love with their partners that makes me wanna get married....*laughs* but for me, i'm still me...still the same old me...nothing, nobody and nowhere...most said my expectations are too hight..some said my social circle is too small..some said the one has not arrived....but are these the real reasons? not that i'm getting desperate..but maybe i am..but i do want to love and be loved...never mind..just some random and senseless thoughts...

suddenly, i remembered something..hahaha...went shopping on tuesday with 3 other people, M, A and A...actually, it was A and A who sort of like arranged to meet while me and M sort of like arranged to meet..and then A asked me along and i asked M along..since we all know each other...anyway, both M and i though that the girl A seems kinda intereste in guy A...during the whole shopping trip, M and i were always together..even when we try to separate ourselves to mingle around..somehow, A and A will alawys end up together...the most classic case: was talking to guy A about previous week's church service..and he only managed to talk 1/4 of it when girl A simply cuts in and change the whole topic....*laughs* and when M and I purposely walked slower to "separate" them...somehow, they will even slow down even more to the extent that M and I got irritaed...*laughs* asked guy A if he's interested..he said : i dont know...ask girl A if she's interested...she said : too holy, different mindsets....*laughs* what is going on here? are they or are they not interested in each other? tsk tsk tsk..make up your minds people....so wishy-washy...totally detest wishy-washiness...

reading back this entry..kinda duhz....but then again, who cares....they are my thoughts..i am rather duhz...unable to write profound and inspiring stuffs and hence i write rubbish...hahahaha..go ahead and call me a bimbo...*smilez*