piano exam

the date has been set....6th September 2005 is my doom day...this is the day when i will take my diploma in piano performance exam...seriously speaking..i really wonder why did i choose to take this exam...because (1) i am NOT going to be a performer and (2) i am SO FUCKING bad at the piano....*laughs* but anyhow, i have paid 450 bucks for the exams and so i will have to give it a shot...

anyway...the whole format of the exam is something like this: i will have to play 4 pieces - one from each period...and then i will have a sight-reading which is a grade 6 piece of music and viva voce...where the 2 examiners will talk to me about the 4 pieces that i have performed..all these will take 1 hour plus....kaoz....i paid so much to undergo so much stress....rather ironic right?

here's what i will be performing:

2 Sonatas in A - Domenico Scarlatti (1685 – 1757)

this is a piece from the baroque period...the 17th centery...not a difficult piece..am quite confident of this piece but hopefully i wont screw up by playing the wrong notes or whatsoever... this will be the very 1st music that i will be playing for the examiners..so must leave good impression...

10 Variations on a Minuet by Duport - Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart (1756 – 1791)

from the classical period...the 18th century...quite a melodious piece of music...but many running notes...and under exam circumstances...i will surely FAIL to play the running notes accurately...sighz...but never mind..hopefully i can smoke my way through..which i think is rather difficult....*laughs*

Impromptu in G-flat - Franz Schubert

my least prepared piece..because i only learnt this music for a few months....am really lousy with music from the romantic perios...the 19th century..am not musical enough to bring out the music and all...no feelings...the only feeling i got for this music is DIFFICULT...*laughs* so i protrayed that feeling and style and my teacher told me it's wrong....but how? cannot means cannot lah....sighz...

6 Dances in Bulgarian Rhythm from “Mikrokosmos” - Bela Bartok (1881 – 1945)

this is the so-called modern music...from the 20th century...very erratic playing..no melody...tons of banging...till my hands and arms ache...guess i am really lousy...if wrong notes are played..never mind..becuase the music sounded disonance...*laughs* i likee....but got to play damn fast..and must flip pages...if fail to do that...music will break down..then i die....sighz...

for this exam....i took 3 days leave to prepare....and i practice like almost 5 hours daily...actually this i not enough...but according to my standard..i have played more than what i normally played...but i still think my performance sucks...like what my teacher always comment: NO STYLE, NO FEELINGS aiyah..i tried my best already..i am not a born performer....i cannot perform..will have stage fright sia...and tomorrow's exam is literally on a stage..in a recital hall on the grand piano....actually having dilemna now....WHAT SHALL I WEAR TOMORROW?? *laughs*

anyway, i need tons of praying to help me....but i still think that i am going to fail this exam....as i think i am not a performer....sighz...quite stupid of me to pay the Associated Board of Royal School of Music to fly in 2 British to fail me....*laughs*

well..may the Lord Almighty bless me....wish me good luck people...