mid-twenties crisis

am sure everyone has their own crisis at different times of their lives...currently, i think i am facing the mid-twenties crisis...mmm...maybe to many...mid-twenties should not have any crisis..but i have ah...*SIGHZ* but then again..i am not really in my mid-twenties....i am approaching my mid-twenties....but time really flies...and before one knows it..i may be in my nineties already...maybe dead already...*laughs*

anyway...i have only 1 year left before i am an official mid-twenty...and till date...i have accomplished NOTHING!! *bawls* nothing...i have nothing to my name...MONEY always not enough..dont even have enough to buy anything...CAREER not established, nothing to say nothing to show... LOVE is a piece of blank paper..no boyfriends, no dates, no suitors...*bawls* see...i didnt bluff when i said i am hitting the mid-twenties crisis...

some of my friends are rich and influential...so MONEY not an issue to them...CAREER has the backing of family...some of my friends are rich, influential and good-looking...so MONEY not an issue at all...CAREER not really a problem... DATES are always knocking at their doors...other friends have plans in mind...so MONEY is in control... CAREER is carefully planned.... a few has the calibre and luck... good CAREER which brings them good MONEY and may in turn bring them good DATES... see...all my friends....out of the 3 items...they have at least one....for me...i have NOTHING!!! i dont like my job...so no CAREER...no MONEY... not from a rich family... so no MONEY... then am fat and ugly...so no DATES...can someone tell me...is there anyone more worst off than me??

okay okay..i think i have gone too far...there are many people out there who doesnt even have enough food to eat, enough clothes to wear, no parents to dote on them, no relatives to share joy and laughter, and many many more misfortunes...i guess i am lucky to have a family..although at times...i dont realy like my parents and my siblings and my relatives...ha ha ha..but hey...i believe i am not alone...if you tell me you NEVER dislike your parents and siblings...jolly well go EAT SHIT AND DIE!! *laughs* and well at least i am healthy...and at least i do enjoy certain comforts...i must learn to be contented with whatever i have....

but seriously, i do feel lost...lost in transition..,from a schoolgirl to an office lady...somehow...i missed school...missed the carefree lifestyle...missed the holidays...missed the canteens..missed the priviledges as a student...but anyhow, i'm enjoying my working life...BUT after office hours!! *laughs* somehow, i feel that i'm leading a misleading life...i dont know what i want in life...somehow for the first time...i cannot see my future...*sighz*

i think it's time for me to change my CAREER, think of how to earn and save more MONEY and get to know more guys to DATE...actually i think the best solution is to get a rich husband and be a tai tai...then i will be a TAI TAI (career) with lotsa MONEY and a HUSBAND (love)!!!! *laughs*