recently a friend told me that ever since i move to HK, i am not the same. she said i was not as jovial and as happy-go-lucky as i used to be. she said i have become emotional, reckless, rude, snappy and jaded. she said she feel that whatever i said or do, i never really think through it and i just say or do it. and im more rude and come across as unfriendly. she was even afraid that my thoughts and doings would be warped by my current boss ( who is not very well-liked by some and seriously misunderstood by many ).
i asked a few others if they think i am like that. some said that i am not so happy now and i seemed to be more tired but they believed it's due to work. some said i am still the same, crazy and laughing all the way. some said i have become more bad-tempered. some said i have matured. some said they cannot comment and some said not very sure or i dont know.
seriously, i do think i have changed. for the better or for the worse, i cannot comment. to be honest, i agree that i am more jaded and bitter now and i believe it's because of the work that im doing, the environment that im in and the responsibilities that i have, and maybe the people im hanging out with. i choose to believe that i have definitely matured and i have learn how to take care of myself in some ways or another. i have learn to deal with loneliness and also to deal with shits and everything. I also believe i have seen more and learnt more about life and the real world during my 7 months in HK. it has shown me reality and i am kinda jaded because ideals and reality does not gel and i finally get it. i think. to be honest, i am learning a lot from my boss. he may have the weirdest ideas and the worst personality or whatsoever, he has shown me how to play mind games in the right way, how to work smart and not work hard and all the nitty-gritty which can never be learnt via textbooks, lectures, trainings or whatsoever.
actually, i feel that it's not just me who has changed. i feel that now, i can handle more "big' stuffs while this friend of mine is still in her eggshell, protected and skewed. if she's afraid that my thinking and logic will be warped by my boss, i am afraid that her boss is not doing any justice by being fake and nice to her and allow her to think that everything's and everyone's nice and perfect. she told me that at times, we can and we should take on some losses because we might get something better in return. I told her i agree but not in every cases. we cant just take on the losses in every single cases or situations we faced. that's too stupid. at least i think it's not being very smart. maybe i have really grown and she has stayed stagnant and i kinda feel unfair that she's comparing herself to me. maybe i have become more haolian that i think she is in no position to be compared with me. maybe, i really have no idea.
anyway, i am whatever you say i am.
i asked a few others if they think i am like that. some said that i am not so happy now and i seemed to be more tired but they believed it's due to work. some said i am still the same, crazy and laughing all the way. some said i have become more bad-tempered. some said i have matured. some said they cannot comment and some said not very sure or i dont know.
seriously, i do think i have changed. for the better or for the worse, i cannot comment. to be honest, i agree that i am more jaded and bitter now and i believe it's because of the work that im doing, the environment that im in and the responsibilities that i have, and maybe the people im hanging out with. i choose to believe that i have definitely matured and i have learn how to take care of myself in some ways or another. i have learn to deal with loneliness and also to deal with shits and everything. I also believe i have seen more and learnt more about life and the real world during my 7 months in HK. it has shown me reality and i am kinda jaded because ideals and reality does not gel and i finally get it. i think. to be honest, i am learning a lot from my boss. he may have the weirdest ideas and the worst personality or whatsoever, he has shown me how to play mind games in the right way, how to work smart and not work hard and all the nitty-gritty which can never be learnt via textbooks, lectures, trainings or whatsoever.
actually, i feel that it's not just me who has changed. i feel that now, i can handle more "big' stuffs while this friend of mine is still in her eggshell, protected and skewed. if she's afraid that my thinking and logic will be warped by my boss, i am afraid that her boss is not doing any justice by being fake and nice to her and allow her to think that everything's and everyone's nice and perfect. she told me that at times, we can and we should take on some losses because we might get something better in return. I told her i agree but not in every cases. we cant just take on the losses in every single cases or situations we faced. that's too stupid. at least i think it's not being very smart. maybe i have really grown and she has stayed stagnant and i kinda feel unfair that she's comparing herself to me. maybe i have become more haolian that i think she is in no position to be compared with me. maybe, i really have no idea.
anyway, i am whatever you say i am.
2 comments:
The outside has changed, but I believe the inside is still the same. =)
Change is good. Change for the better of course.
You are right. Shouldnt compare.heard of the chinese saying "ren bi ren qi si ren" she will end up getting upset after comparing
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