Stressssssss

ever felt like this? i believe everyone has their stressful moments every now and then. stress is something which is inevitable. it is something that we have a love-hate relationship with. something we would not want to have but yet we cannot live without. i am not exactly feeling stressed now but yet i am stressed. not physically but mentally, emotionally and financially. HAHA.

i believe everyone's always financially stressed. even when you have 1 billion in your account, you will be stressed about when will you make your next billion. and when you made that next billion, you will be stressed over the next billion. vicious cycle. it will go on and on and on and on. i think the only time is when you're almost dying. HAHA. personally, im financially stressed as usual and as always. i always say i need to save and etc etc but the next moment, i'll book myself a tour to Bali or buy myself clothes and bags. HAHA this is bad, really bad.

physically stressed to me is when someone or something was physically by your side to stressed you. i am not exactly experiencing this stress although at work, i am sitting next to my boss. he doesnt strees me physically. sometimes, but rarely, he would be at my side, looking over my shoulders and watching what im doing or asking me to do something. very seldom i get such stress. ( thank God for that ) although at times, he would ask me where i am going or what im doing but usually he just let me go after that question. think he's just kaypoh. haha.

BUT...my boss is very very good at giving me mental stress. i dont know how he does it. but when he's stressed, im naturally stressed. it's like he need not even turn to me and say " i need this, i need that, i blah blah blah " seriously, i have no idea how he did that. and when i said to him " STOP STRESSING ME OUT " and he would go " i didnt. you give that stress to yourself " . come to think of it, he's right in some sense. either he's very influential or im very impressionable. hmmm, i wonder.

unfortunately, i havent gotten the chance to be emotionally stressed. my love life is still ONE PIECE OF WHITE PLAIN PAPER. everyone asked me why and i really have no idea. everyone said im choosy but i really dont think so. maybe i am emotionally stressed when the person i like is not liking me back? but then, the person i like is usually NOT going to like me in return. haha how can i expect Tom Cruise to love me in return? sigh. and in reality, i dont know if it's because im not ready or im really choosy but i always seems to give out the " im not interested " signal when actually, im kinda interested. maybe im really choosy. maybe im shy. maybe im not really. i dont know lah. my grandma is forever hinting to me to get married. aah, actually i am feeling the emotional stress! yay! haha.

i think im so stressed that im kinda mad. my colleague always say im mad. but i really dont think im mad. im just normal. very very normal. seriously.