attended a wedding on thursday (11/16/06) at hyatt...it was an ex-colleague's wedding...basically, not very close but she invited me because i have no idea why either...haha! actually, i thought the wedding was very boring...the food looks nice on paper but when the actual thing arrive..it's cold and not so tasty..the emcees are boliao..the usual "yam-sheng" and picture-taking...nothing much...didnt get any pictures from any friends..maybe might not get at all..slow lah, these people...but this wedding makes me think about my own wedding...
for the longest time, i've always dream of having a castle wedding..and i mean a REAL castle..not the one you find in disney world..i want to go europe to have my wedding in a castle...where my guests will live in the rooms and my enemies in the dungeons..haha! everyone will wear medieval gowns and ballroom dancing is a must...it's like as if i'm marrying the duke of some island or etc..haha! and most people, upon hearing this, told me that i'm dreaming...*sighz* but it's really want i want....but suddenly, i have an alternative...i'm going to have my wedding in ZOUK!! hahaha..will reserve the whole of zouk...hire famous DJs...buffet and free flow of alcohol! and instead of the wedding march, i will walk in with my dad to the tune of "Superstar" by Jamelia...hahaha! then my friends told me..my first step, get someone who likes zouk...i try but no guarantee...but there's ONE BIG FLAW in my planning...i DONT have a husband! hahaha! anyway, i wil continue to brainstorm...
ON A DIFFERENT NOTE...
recently, have been feeling very demotivated at work...not that i was extremely motivated..but after my beloved boss left, i have been swarmed with work and somehow, i feel a little bit lost and uncared for...although everyday i have 2 managers asking me if i'm fine but seriously, i dont feel the sincerity and genuinity...*sighz* was soooo looking forward to the return of my colleague in india but i was "hit" by another news...HE'S GOING TO CHINA FOR 2 WEEKS IN DECEMBER!! seriously, i was very pissed when i know about this...why would anyone send an indonesian to china and not a chinese? why is he given the chance to gain exposure and learn new things while i have to stay behind in singapore to cover all the shit? do i seriously look like a shit-lover? so fucked up!!
well, this colleague told me that he has proposed to our manager that i should be given a chance and asked me to speak to our manger to ask him to give me the chance to go instead..and so i did..i sent manager an email, telling him i would love to go and gain exposure and that my race as chinese will definitely help in a all-chinese environment...and he came back with the reply, thanking me for the offer (??!!!) and that there will be opportunity next year for me to go to china and learn and he will keep in mind...blah blah blah...one do not need the intelligence of a rocket scientist to know that it's a " NO " ya? but my colleague kept pestering me to talk to my manager again...but seriously, i dont see the point...i've tried and i've gotten rejected...what more can i say? then my colleague said that i should fight for my own good..blah blah blah...and that he cannot speak to my manager again as he doesnt want to give the manager the impression that he doesnt want to go...so does that mean that i have to give the manager the impression that i must go china no matter what he says?
seriously, i do not give a fuck anymore...frankly speaking, if i'm always not being given the opportunity would i care that much? so what if i clean up all the shit? ultimately, it's the company and others who benefit and not me...well, i will continue to clean up..i'm just doing what i can..hopefully to learn as much as i could...let my resume look nice and i'm going to find a new job this time next year... now i'm beginning to hate going to work and facing all the colleagues..no matter how nice they are...i'm simply not interested at al and somehow am a little pissed with some of them...no amount of perks can perk me up anymore...i dont think i'm even going to join in whatever parties my company is going to hold...from now on, i'm going to be the anti-social babe...take it or leave it...
for the longest time, i've always dream of having a castle wedding..and i mean a REAL castle..not the one you find in disney world..i want to go europe to have my wedding in a castle...where my guests will live in the rooms and my enemies in the dungeons..haha! everyone will wear medieval gowns and ballroom dancing is a must...it's like as if i'm marrying the duke of some island or etc..haha! and most people, upon hearing this, told me that i'm dreaming...*sighz* but it's really want i want....but suddenly, i have an alternative...i'm going to have my wedding in ZOUK!! hahaha..will reserve the whole of zouk...hire famous DJs...buffet and free flow of alcohol! and instead of the wedding march, i will walk in with my dad to the tune of "Superstar" by Jamelia...hahaha! then my friends told me..my first step, get someone who likes zouk...i try but no guarantee...but there's ONE BIG FLAW in my planning...i DONT have a husband! hahaha! anyway, i wil continue to brainstorm...
ON A DIFFERENT NOTE...
recently, have been feeling very demotivated at work...not that i was extremely motivated..but after my beloved boss left, i have been swarmed with work and somehow, i feel a little bit lost and uncared for...although everyday i have 2 managers asking me if i'm fine but seriously, i dont feel the sincerity and genuinity...*sighz* was soooo looking forward to the return of my colleague in india but i was "hit" by another news...HE'S GOING TO CHINA FOR 2 WEEKS IN DECEMBER!! seriously, i was very pissed when i know about this...why would anyone send an indonesian to china and not a chinese? why is he given the chance to gain exposure and learn new things while i have to stay behind in singapore to cover all the shit? do i seriously look like a shit-lover? so fucked up!!
well, this colleague told me that he has proposed to our manager that i should be given a chance and asked me to speak to our manger to ask him to give me the chance to go instead..and so i did..i sent manager an email, telling him i would love to go and gain exposure and that my race as chinese will definitely help in a all-chinese environment...and he came back with the reply, thanking me for the offer (??!!!) and that there will be opportunity next year for me to go to china and learn and he will keep in mind...blah blah blah...one do not need the intelligence of a rocket scientist to know that it's a " NO " ya? but my colleague kept pestering me to talk to my manager again...but seriously, i dont see the point...i've tried and i've gotten rejected...what more can i say? then my colleague said that i should fight for my own good..blah blah blah...and that he cannot speak to my manager again as he doesnt want to give the manager the impression that he doesnt want to go...so does that mean that i have to give the manager the impression that i must go china no matter what he says?
seriously, i do not give a fuck anymore...frankly speaking, if i'm always not being given the opportunity would i care that much? so what if i clean up all the shit? ultimately, it's the company and others who benefit and not me...well, i will continue to clean up..i'm just doing what i can..hopefully to learn as much as i could...let my resume look nice and i'm going to find a new job this time next year... now i'm beginning to hate going to work and facing all the colleagues..no matter how nice they are...i'm simply not interested at al and somehow am a little pissed with some of them...no amount of perks can perk me up anymore...i dont think i'm even going to join in whatever parties my company is going to hold...from now on, i'm going to be the anti-social babe...take it or leave it...
5 comments:
amy- Hey i thought you were happy at work?? cheer up Han!! Focus on the things after work.. like me!!
amy: i'm not unhappy..you're VERY unhappy at work..for me, it's just some situations that pissed me off..just got to let it out! :)
don't be disheartened. maybe he really meant next year, so that you'll be more ready? don't give up so easily, continue trying and see how it goes next year. you never know if you don't try. :)
dee
dee: awwwww..you're so sweeet...yeah, after a while, i sort of "get over it" and now i guess i'm back to my usual self in office? hahaha..oh, i'm so pragmatic! :)
cheer up ney! so disappointed to see that all this had happened, but i'm sure that there'll be more chances next year. ok? :) will lobby for you, girl!
good to hear that you're back to your cheery jolly self :)
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